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[gsobean]

I was flipping through Facebook, looking at everyone's pictures and updates....And, all of a sudden, I realized I am tired of feeling like everyone has a more interesting or better life than me, for one reason or another. I am exhausted at constantly criticizing myself for just about everything--spending money on this or that, not working hard

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[gsobean]

I appreciate that, Carrie. I think that's what is frustrating, that I did get myself up here and am in this fantastic place, but that I still feel overwhelmed by anxiety. I suppose on one hand it is understandable, this isn't the most calming of places. Still, I just really dislike this uneasiness. I am trying to realize that even if I do get accepted to school, it won't solve everything. So, when I start to think like that, I start racking my brain about what will help me let goes of this constant guilt. I've gotten to the point where it just seems normal to feel this way--not comfortable, but normal--like, I don't know how it feels to not be in this state of flux all the time.

Dan is making me realize that it's not and shouldn't be "normal" to feel this way--that if I have issues with certain situations I should figure out a way to overcome it. He's a much more logic oriented person than I.

I really miss you guys, the group...all those things about college that I knew I would miss. I just don't have a great outlet for support right now--for a group of people who can listen and talk. Dan is great, but you can't always go to one person.