thinking......
i was thinking today and i know that me and my baby have so much drama and im getting tired of it but i dont know what to do. i love my baby with everything that i am, and i cant see my self with out him. but i know that one person can only take so much....and i dont know how to tell him enough is enough. im just so afraid of hurting him but it seems to me that everytime he fucks up to me it seems that he's not afraid of hurting me. i dont know what to do...i was talking to my parents about this today and what they see is him taking advantage of me and he is....he fucks up but he always knows that im there to have his back in the end and i want it to be like that i want my man to know that he can depend on me when he needs me. but he's taking advantage of me being there and i dont know what to about it. everyone says that you're not happy then just leave him but believe me that it is easier said than done....but my mom asked me today what i see in him and sometimes i dont know, but everytime that i try to leave him i cant. i look him in the eyes and i try and bulid up the courage to say what im gonna say and it just doesnt come out. but i know that i love my baby and i have this hope in my heart that one day everything will turn around and everything will be fine, but i've been waiting for a year and i keep on waiting when that day is going to come......im tired of waiting but i want to be around when it happens that's something i dont want to miss. i know that i love my baby im for sure on that, he has something that i feel that i can never find again and i dont want to take the chance of losing it.....