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I'm still alive! I swear. Just been really busy lately slash notinspiredtoupdate. Besides that, just not a whole lot going on recently. Or if there was, it's too far gone to remember or bother posting about.
I dunno, lately I'm just in this slightly uncomfortable state of mind 24/7. I blame most of it on school and family, and really, that's mainly where it's rooted. Schoolwise, I have so many long-term papers and projects to work on, it's maddening, but they're the kind that are SO long-term and spaced out, I can't, like, take one night and sit down and do a shitload of work to get it out of the way. Oh no. I have to work at the teachers' leisure, which in turn leaves my mind feeling really upset and panicky and unsatisfied. HATE. I really hope next year will be better, but no guarantees. Then I'll probably be too busy flipping out about college things. Ugh, and besides the project I have that Art Festival thing April 2nd or 3rd or whatnot to go to, which I DON'T want to do. Even after the MASS amounts of annoying work and effort that went into getting into it, Maren's only an alternate nominee, and I don't want to do it without her. Total bullshit. She should have gotten in before I did. Or all or nothing. Or something. Guess who doesn't want to spend two days in a workshop with snotty Concord-kid artists working on a "collaborative" piece? The answer is Liz. Guh.
Family wise, things have kept going on their downhill pattern. On the plus side? Divorce is on the horizon. Yay divorce! My mom's already met with the lawyer, but due to the nature of the putrid black pit of FILTH that is my dad, there are a lot of complications to work out. Such as JUST how much he'll pay on the mortgage for the second house that's going to be built, for my mom, in exchange for him not having to pay child support. My mom won't know just how much she's entitled to, because she doesn't know how much my dad is worth, how much he makes a day, how much he has in the bank, nothing. If she asks him, he'll just lie. Like he ALWAYS FUCKING DOES in EVERY situation where lying is even REMOTELY possible. "What color is that red car, dad?" "It's blue." GUHHH. So she's having some research done on it, which will cost her, but if he has a million bucks stashed somewhere...well. Of course, the kicker is that he probably DOES have a shitload of money stashed somewhere, but it's so well-hidden that they'll never find it. It's his to buy drugs or planes or whatever the fuck he does with.
Okay, not going to get into ranting about my dad right now O_o; You'll never frigging see the end of it. BUT fortunately for all of this, I am really glad for my friends, both on and offline. Dunno what I'd do without them. Since my Hellsing DVDs came, I've been over to Maren and Brad's house a lot, and they over here, forcing them to watch it. Who's complaining? NOT me. Oh God, Hellsinnnng. Too bad Maren stole it for the weekend, or I'd watchitrightnow. Mrrr. I OCed hardcore with Snowy the other night. For, like, two hours. It takes about ten minutes to watch the entire damned event file. It's SICK wtf. And Holly's coming up in June-ish :D Yee! *dance* We're going to force her to get naked and run through the woods barefoot like a GOOD little rural New Hampshirite. ....what? o_O;
Not very interested in XMM lately. It could up and crash for a week and I probably wouldn't notice. Considering that I'm the headwiz, that's kinda sad. However, I'm also, like, the only one working on it lately, besides some of the staff like Jean and people, so.. :p Getting more into HT, even though it's really barren. Apped Aislinn for Search, and hopefully she'll make it to candihood, anyway. We'll see. IC Search starts Sunday, I think. *wiggledance* But really, I just haven't had a whole lot of drive for MU*ing, I guess. Schoolwork intervenes a lot, I guess, but also the fact that I can RP anything I want with Holly or Snowy via AIM. It's not quite the same atmosphere, but it's good for a fix.
Went out today and bought a new sketchpad with a twenty I bummed off of my deadbeat dad. Also rented Underworld again and bought lunch with the same twenty but...Christ, he'll never notice :p Spent most of the afternoon working on an OC tablet doodle of a naga, and watching the first half hour or so of Underworld. It's less interesting than I remember. Ohwell. Went out with my mom to TJ Maxx later, and bought some much-needed clothes. Namely a bathrobe, a couple pairs of jeans, and some panties. And because it's TJ Maxx, it cost less than, like, a single pair of pants would go for at Hot Topic :p Who's thrifty? Meee! I really love the bathrobe. It's silky leopard print and came as a set with a cool black nightie with leopard trim. It's like the kind of cheesy crap you see in the movies, but I like it, damnit X3 Makes me feel sexeh.
....I want fish c_c;
I dunno, lately I'm just in this slightly uncomfortable state of mind 24/7. I blame most of it on school and family, and really, that's mainly where it's rooted. Schoolwise, I have so many long-term papers and projects to work on, it's maddening, but they're the kind that are SO long-term and spaced out, I can't, like, take one night and sit down and do a shitload of work to get it out of the way. Oh no. I have to work at the teachers' leisure, which in turn leaves my mind feeling really upset and panicky and unsatisfied. HATE. I really hope next year will be better, but no guarantees. Then I'll probably be too busy flipping out about college things. Ugh, and besides the project I have that Art Festival thing April 2nd or 3rd or whatnot to go to, which I DON'T want to do. Even after the MASS amounts of annoying work and effort that went into getting into it, Maren's only an alternate nominee, and I don't want to do it without her. Total bullshit. She should have gotten in before I did. Or all or nothing. Or something. Guess who doesn't want to spend two days in a workshop with snotty Concord-kid artists working on a "collaborative" piece? The answer is Liz. Guh.
Family wise, things have kept going on their downhill pattern. On the plus side? Divorce is on the horizon. Yay divorce! My mom's already met with the lawyer, but due to the nature of the putrid black pit of FILTH that is my dad, there are a lot of complications to work out. Such as JUST how much he'll pay on the mortgage for the second house that's going to be built, for my mom, in exchange for him not having to pay child support. My mom won't know just how much she's entitled to, because she doesn't know how much my dad is worth, how much he makes a day, how much he has in the bank, nothing. If she asks him, he'll just lie. Like he ALWAYS FUCKING DOES in EVERY situation where lying is even REMOTELY possible. "What color is that red car, dad?" "It's blue." GUHHH. So she's having some research done on it, which will cost her, but if he has a million bucks stashed somewhere...well. Of course, the kicker is that he probably DOES have a shitload of money stashed somewhere, but it's so well-hidden that they'll never find it. It's his to buy drugs or planes or whatever the fuck he does with.
Okay, not going to get into ranting about my dad right now O_o; You'll never frigging see the end of it. BUT fortunately for all of this, I am really glad for my friends, both on and offline. Dunno what I'd do without them. Since my Hellsing DVDs came, I've been over to Maren and Brad's house a lot, and they over here, forcing them to watch it. Who's complaining? NOT me. Oh God, Hellsinnnng. Too bad Maren stole it for the weekend, or I'd watchitrightnow. Mrrr. I OCed hardcore with Snowy the other night. For, like, two hours. It takes about ten minutes to watch the entire damned event file. It's SICK wtf. And Holly's coming up in June-ish :D Yee! *dance* We're going to force her to get naked and run through the woods barefoot like a GOOD little rural New Hampshirite. ....what? o_O;
Not very interested in XMM lately. It could up and crash for a week and I probably wouldn't notice. Considering that I'm the headwiz, that's kinda sad. However, I'm also, like, the only one working on it lately, besides some of the staff like Jean and people, so.. :p Getting more into HT, even though it's really barren. Apped Aislinn for Search, and hopefully she'll make it to candihood, anyway. We'll see. IC Search starts Sunday, I think. *wiggledance* But really, I just haven't had a whole lot of drive for MU*ing, I guess. Schoolwork intervenes a lot, I guess, but also the fact that I can RP anything I want with Holly or Snowy via AIM. It's not quite the same atmosphere, but it's good for a fix.
Went out today and bought a new sketchpad with a twenty I bummed off of my deadbeat dad. Also rented Underworld again and bought lunch with the same twenty but...Christ, he'll never notice :p Spent most of the afternoon working on an OC tablet doodle of a naga, and watching the first half hour or so of Underworld. It's less interesting than I remember. Ohwell. Went out with my mom to TJ Maxx later, and bought some much-needed clothes. Namely a bathrobe, a couple pairs of jeans, and some panties. And because it's TJ Maxx, it cost less than, like, a single pair of pants would go for at Hot Topic :p Who's thrifty? Meee! I really love the bathrobe. It's silky leopard print and came as a set with a cool black nightie with leopard trim. It's like the kind of cheesy crap you see in the movies, but I like it, damnit X3 Makes me feel sexeh.
....I want fish c_c;