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so, i've been neglecting my lj for a few years now... (well, actually, didn't have much to say since i got back from Hungary... led a boring life) but today, i came to a realization.... my life, and mostly, my personality suck
it's not really my life... right now, my life is good.. i'm up here in alert, with no actual serious ties back home.. that means i can fuck up, and no one will really know about it...
it's more of my unbearing, personality.. i don't know what it is about me, but i can't seem to nip it in the bud. i've been trying. trust me, i have.. i've been trying to surpress it, but i noticed tonight, twice already, i've opened my mouth, said something, or done something, people looked at me as if i was an idiot..
so sue me for trying to make an innuendo... so sue me for buying a shot for a 19 year old.. i'm sorry, but who cares if he's small and scrawny... i know people who are scrawny, and can keep up with me.. (very few people can actually surpass me when we're dealing with hard)
trust me, i've been trying to change who i am.. i have.. for the betterment of other people.. to make their lives easier, less stressful, less filled with imi, but i really can't..
fuck man, i need a smoke.. but i had to go ahead and quit
keep fighting the good fight, i know i'm trying to
it's not really my life... right now, my life is good.. i'm up here in alert, with no actual serious ties back home.. that means i can fuck up, and no one will really know about it...
it's more of my unbearing, personality.. i don't know what it is about me, but i can't seem to nip it in the bud. i've been trying. trust me, i have.. i've been trying to surpress it, but i noticed tonight, twice already, i've opened my mouth, said something, or done something, people looked at me as if i was an idiot..
so sue me for trying to make an innuendo... so sue me for buying a shot for a 19 year old.. i'm sorry, but who cares if he's small and scrawny... i know people who are scrawny, and can keep up with me.. (very few people can actually surpass me when we're dealing with hard)
trust me, i've been trying to change who i am.. i have.. for the betterment of other people.. to make their lives easier, less stressful, less filled with imi, but i really can't..
fuck man, i need a smoke.. but i had to go ahead and quit
keep fighting the good fight, i know i'm trying to