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Quick updates.
Things are better with Kayla. We have much to work out but the reality is I love the girl and I just can't give up on us being happy.
On that note I've a lot to work on... Finances are shit right now and its really upsetting me... Which is shit... I shouldn't get so worked up over finances and have to get my shit together. It makes her upset to see me so bothered... And it bothers me that I can work myself to the point of throwing up worrying about it.
So it needs to stop. Yeah... I dont even have money for rent this month... But I'll figure something out, and in the long run I'll find a way to make it work.
My body... I dont care what anyone says I detest my physique and appearance... I will be trying to see whatever it is she and others seem to see in me so I can find my confidence cause... lets be honest... One shitty innapproriate conversation tore me down in a major way and not only do I need to stand back up, but I need to be sure that in the future NO ONE has the ability to lash out at me with their bullshit and false crap and have it still hurt me so deeply.
Realms. I get a lot recently of people hating where I am as a player in the game. To those people I suggest the following... Stuff it. I have had enough of folks talking about me behind my back. You want me to grow? SO DO I... Fucking tell me what it is you see that can be changed, and I promise I'll let you know whether or not its something feasible to do. People dont want me to start a nation, but frankly I'm about to embark on something amazing and you can either stand with me or cough on the dust my boys and I are gonna leave behind. My crew is solid, we're strong and growing quickly as a unit and as friends. We will push the envelope and raise the bar and there is little anyone can do at this point to stop us. If you wanna bicker behind my back, talk trash or spread rumors do yourself a favor and save your breath because from now on when I hear gossip I will find the source and snuff it. No more.
I still invite any and all constructive criticism on myself as a player and aspiring knight, but save the heresay and keep your advice to things I can actually work on and spare me your griping about skills I have that you do not and wish you did.
*breath*
All of that being said... I am bored as hell and have spent nearly my entire day sitting in this house. Tomorrow, if people are interested, I'm looking to start doing some serious photography and need to practice more. SO folks I'm close by with lots of areas to visit and use. I'm thinking if folks are available even tomorrow grab your realms garb or even just a few nice outfits and give me a heads up. We can get a few folks and do a few hours of shooting somewhere nearby. And you can get digital copies of all the pics :D
everyone wins! but mostly I win cause I get to spend time with friends.
I need more of that.
Things are better with Kayla. We have much to work out but the reality is I love the girl and I just can't give up on us being happy.
On that note I've a lot to work on... Finances are shit right now and its really upsetting me... Which is shit... I shouldn't get so worked up over finances and have to get my shit together. It makes her upset to see me so bothered... And it bothers me that I can work myself to the point of throwing up worrying about it.
So it needs to stop. Yeah... I dont even have money for rent this month... But I'll figure something out, and in the long run I'll find a way to make it work.
My body... I dont care what anyone says I detest my physique and appearance... I will be trying to see whatever it is she and others seem to see in me so I can find my confidence cause... lets be honest... One shitty innapproriate conversation tore me down in a major way and not only do I need to stand back up, but I need to be sure that in the future NO ONE has the ability to lash out at me with their bullshit and false crap and have it still hurt me so deeply.
Realms. I get a lot recently of people hating where I am as a player in the game. To those people I suggest the following... Stuff it. I have had enough of folks talking about me behind my back. You want me to grow? SO DO I... Fucking tell me what it is you see that can be changed, and I promise I'll let you know whether or not its something feasible to do. People dont want me to start a nation, but frankly I'm about to embark on something amazing and you can either stand with me or cough on the dust my boys and I are gonna leave behind. My crew is solid, we're strong and growing quickly as a unit and as friends. We will push the envelope and raise the bar and there is little anyone can do at this point to stop us. If you wanna bicker behind my back, talk trash or spread rumors do yourself a favor and save your breath because from now on when I hear gossip I will find the source and snuff it. No more.
I still invite any and all constructive criticism on myself as a player and aspiring knight, but save the heresay and keep your advice to things I can actually work on and spare me your griping about skills I have that you do not and wish you did.
*breath*
All of that being said... I am bored as hell and have spent nearly my entire day sitting in this house. Tomorrow, if people are interested, I'm looking to start doing some serious photography and need to practice more. SO folks I'm close by with lots of areas to visit and use. I'm thinking if folks are available even tomorrow grab your realms garb or even just a few nice outfits and give me a heads up. We can get a few folks and do a few hours of shooting somewhere nearby. And you can get digital copies of all the pics :D
everyone wins! but mostly I win cause I get to spend time with friends.
I need more of that.