blips of happiness
surprising nights when you think you are gonna be all alone...and you decide to take an adventure all by your lonesome and it turns out to be everything you've needed.
i decided to go get study fuel (green tea latte) and i happened to see carl in the parking lot of the gateway...i chat and have a smoke with him and his darling coworker chelsea....and then i get him to take me on a vespa ride...
its dumb...but i havent felt that alive in months...it could be a multitude of things...how nice it is outside...the sights..being with someone you used to be in love with and miss horribly...randomness...all things that are the 'stuff' of life. maybe it was reminiscing about the good ol' times when carl and i would ride around for hours on that thing in the middle of the night, sometimes inebriated, sometimes not...which reminds me of where my life was last year this time last march...i was living in the aves with thomas/danielle...drinking a lot...dating carl...and come to think of it...life was amazing..life IS amazing.
i feel so independent and successful. i can do anything and everything that i want with my life right now..no strings attached. i am a lucky girl..i get to go to school..i have amazing friends...i laugh a lot...these are the times that i will always remember....i have no husband..no kids...i live on my own...i can do whatever i want with my time...its taken me a LONG time to get where i am today...i have been 'single' for a year and a half (since chris). i have turned into a girl that used to rely on a significant other for fulfillment to someone who is sufficient on her own. i am truly happy. and it can only get better.
funny how a little vespa ride could make me feel this great.
i decided to go get study fuel (green tea latte) and i happened to see carl in the parking lot of the gateway...i chat and have a smoke with him and his darling coworker chelsea....and then i get him to take me on a vespa ride...
its dumb...but i havent felt that alive in months...it could be a multitude of things...how nice it is outside...the sights..being with someone you used to be in love with and miss horribly...randomness...all things that are the 'stuff' of life. maybe it was reminiscing about the good ol' times when carl and i would ride around for hours on that thing in the middle of the night, sometimes inebriated, sometimes not...which reminds me of where my life was last year this time last march...i was living in the aves with thomas/danielle...drinking a lot...dating carl...and come to think of it...life was amazing..life IS amazing.
i feel so independent and successful. i can do anything and everything that i want with my life right now..no strings attached. i am a lucky girl..i get to go to school..i have amazing friends...i laugh a lot...these are the times that i will always remember....i have no husband..no kids...i live on my own...i can do whatever i want with my time...its taken me a LONG time to get where i am today...i have been 'single' for a year and a half (since chris). i have turned into a girl that used to rely on a significant other for fulfillment to someone who is sufficient on her own. i am truly happy. and it can only get better.
funny how a little vespa ride could make me feel this great.