love is hell
my sense of love is completely and utterly demolished...
and no its not JUST because a boy broke up with me. because a boy broke up with me and lied to me about loving me... i have completely deconstructed and analyzed my idea of love.
ok...so here we go...
1. i dont know what love is
2. i dont think people TRULY love me(the only ones i trust are my mom and my bro)
2. god's love is extremely hard to fathom and im having trouble feeling it. im not denying His existence, trust me. i know 1 john 4:8. i know i know i know.
i think people are in it for themselves. what can i get out of this? what can this do for me?
people are completely selfish about love. they love you and then they leave you for something better. just like my dad. how can somebody create you and just leave you like that? how can they see you be born and raise you and make you who you are and then just leave because they cant hang. thats not love. thats selfishness. and everyone has done that to me...except my mom and my brother and a few friends that have longevity.
i dont believe words. words are hollow. show me. show me you love me. prove it.and ill trust you..and ill love you forever.
and no its not JUST because a boy broke up with me. because a boy broke up with me and lied to me about loving me... i have completely deconstructed and analyzed my idea of love.
ok...so here we go...
1. i dont know what love is
2. i dont think people TRULY love me(the only ones i trust are my mom and my bro)
2. god's love is extremely hard to fathom and im having trouble feeling it. im not denying His existence, trust me. i know 1 john 4:8. i know i know i know.
i think people are in it for themselves. what can i get out of this? what can this do for me?
people are completely selfish about love. they love you and then they leave you for something better. just like my dad. how can somebody create you and just leave you like that? how can they see you be born and raise you and make you who you are and then just leave because they cant hang. thats not love. thats selfishness. and everyone has done that to me...except my mom and my brother and a few friends that have longevity.
i dont believe words. words are hollow. show me. show me you love me. prove it.and ill trust you..and ill love you forever.