Grrrrr
I hate this, I fucking HATE THIS! I hate waking up, I hate going to bed, I hate eating, I hate not eating.
I want to go out and find someone to love, but I can't even get out of my house. I sit in my room and I hate myself and I hate everything else. I want to be able to have someone to sit with on the couch and just be able to enjoy being together.
I can't.
I hate being alive, I hate breathing. I hate being. "Please kill me," I'll say in my head, usually over and over, "please just take me".
I want to cry, I just want to cry and get it over with. Scream out until my voice goes away, and then Scream more. I want to just tear myself to pieces with my bare hands, just to do it, just to make the hurt physical instead of mental.
I don't want to hurt other people.
I just want to hurt myself
I want to go out and find someone to love, but I can't even get out of my house. I sit in my room and I hate myself and I hate everything else. I want to be able to have someone to sit with on the couch and just be able to enjoy being together.
I can't.
I hate being alive, I hate breathing. I hate being. "Please kill me," I'll say in my head, usually over and over, "please just take me".
I want to cry, I just want to cry and get it over with. Scream out until my voice goes away, and then Scream more. I want to just tear myself to pieces with my bare hands, just to do it, just to make the hurt physical instead of mental.
I don't want to hurt other people.
I just want to hurt myself