one year later
it's hard to believe that an entire year has passed, that she has been gone of this world. altough it seems as if so much has happened, as to take up mulitple life times, it has been only one year. it's amazing to feel such extremes over the same situation. thesis and antithesis.
so this year, i was losing my composure. hell, i completely lost it. but i feel better now. not because i lost it, but because i was really made to think about it. and why i was losing it, and how unnecessary it really was. i finally feel at peace about it. about how things went down. about how things were before. and about how things will be ok now. there is a calm sense of acceptance. i really thought i had aquired this before, but it was a facade. this feels real. goodbye emotional trainwreck.
in closing, i thank everyone who had anything to say to me. collectively, i have determined a solution, though the particulars are a might abstract to convey. just know that i know that you have helped.
so this year, i was losing my composure. hell, i completely lost it. but i feel better now. not because i lost it, but because i was really made to think about it. and why i was losing it, and how unnecessary it really was. i finally feel at peace about it. about how things went down. about how things were before. and about how things will be ok now. there is a calm sense of acceptance. i really thought i had aquired this before, but it was a facade. this feels real. goodbye emotional trainwreck.
in closing, i thank everyone who had anything to say to me. collectively, i have determined a solution, though the particulars are a might abstract to convey. just know that i know that you have helped.