Oh wait - I really do suck!
Last night - After I got home from practice, lellock sent an email. It was kinda harsh. I sent out another telling people it was okay. Jess calls me crying at 10 something wanting to run lines cuz she feels horrible and that she doesn't deserve her part, Talia talked to me saying she feels bad, and Allie emailed me crying. They said my letter made them feel better - I am not so sure my letter was any good at all now.....
I gave in - I did some pretty stupid stuff. Everything just got to me.....and I gave in. I'm sorry.
Okay, so today. Got up late. Had to carry 2 chairs for lellock to drivers ed. Got there, Hung with my driver's ed posse (Tayla, Alanah, Jess C., Jess L., Manda). Went to the play, everyone who was there was well behaved, and lindsey was right by Lellock's side. I went outside after lellock and I shared a couple words. Manda joined me shortly and let me whine - thanks sweetie! Then a couple after manda left, Jess and Allie came to talk to me. I was joined my Jason, then lindsey came outside. We were civil, kind words, she left and everyone else was on brake outside. I talked to lellock about the email and told her about mine (stupid of me). I go inside, finish practice, talk to lellock, Jess and allie and kristen. We fought whether I was pretty or not. I say no, they say yes. Whatever. Allie found out about almost everything, westwood, stupid stuff the whole sha-bang.
Came home with a ride from Allie, Fought with Maura real quick, got online and emailed lellock the one I emailed last night, got kicked off line, then came back and lellock is pissed at me. She doesn't even care if I like quit now too. This is bad. I am screwed. I tried to apoligize, but whatever.
I wanna do "it" again, I may - the weekend means nothing to do, and I can't be trusted alone.......
P.S. You know who I really love to watch on stage - like during practice and stuff? Manda. She is just really good, and I am kinda addicted to it. It lures me in differently than Allie or Lindsey. And Jessie too, she is just like believable and stuff. These people, are believable, like Talia, they are just sooo good. It is like my drug or something.
I gave in - I did some pretty stupid stuff. Everything just got to me.....and I gave in. I'm sorry.
Okay, so today. Got up late. Had to carry 2 chairs for lellock to drivers ed. Got there, Hung with my driver's ed posse (Tayla, Alanah, Jess C., Jess L., Manda). Went to the play, everyone who was there was well behaved, and lindsey was right by Lellock's side. I went outside after lellock and I shared a couple words. Manda joined me shortly and let me whine - thanks sweetie! Then a couple after manda left, Jess and Allie came to talk to me. I was joined my Jason, then lindsey came outside. We were civil, kind words, she left and everyone else was on brake outside. I talked to lellock about the email and told her about mine (stupid of me). I go inside, finish practice, talk to lellock, Jess and allie and kristen. We fought whether I was pretty or not. I say no, they say yes. Whatever. Allie found out about almost everything, westwood, stupid stuff the whole sha-bang.
Came home with a ride from Allie, Fought with Maura real quick, got online and emailed lellock the one I emailed last night, got kicked off line, then came back and lellock is pissed at me. She doesn't even care if I like quit now too. This is bad. I am screwed. I tried to apoligize, but whatever.
I wanna do "it" again, I may - the weekend means nothing to do, and I can't be trusted alone.......
P.S. You know who I really love to watch on stage - like during practice and stuff? Manda. She is just really good, and I am kinda addicted to it. It lures me in differently than Allie or Lindsey. And Jessie too, she is just like believable and stuff. These people, are believable, like Talia, they are just sooo good. It is like my drug or something.