Fuck it
Last night I spent about $250 buying clothes at AmericanApparel.net and UrbanOutfitters.com. A lot of that was underwear. I'm switching to briefs. I spent $65 on jeans. Two raglan shirts were in the mix. I had to take $150 out of savings to pay for it. But what was I saving up for, anyway? What the fuck can you do with $825 in savings? That's fucking bread money. What the fuck is that money worth if I can wipe so much of it away in a single night on necessities? I'm broke and my pathetic joke of a job isn't pulling its weight. I work for my mother. My mother is my fucking boss. It's pathetic, I've got to quit. But then what?
Applying to Pratt. Fuck it, why not? Hope we can afford it. Hope I can give them a reason to waive the fact that I didn't take my SAT's or ACT's, dropped out of high school, didn't do anything for a year. I hope I'm as talented in real life as I am in my own over inflated ego. The people seem to think so. I hope that gets me in.
Why is every woman in my life deciding to reject me all at once? Do they think I'm obnoxious, or just spineless? What is it about me that is so hard to respect? If anyone out there hates me or has hated me in the past for what they would describe as legitimate, personal reasons, please tell me why. It's important.
Annie, maybe you can shed some light? I know I can rely on you to do so poetically.
Oh, who the fuck am I kidding. Every request for a response that I've sent out to girls in the past few months has been met with silence. Why should this be any different.
Here's to zero progress.
Applying to Pratt. Fuck it, why not? Hope we can afford it. Hope I can give them a reason to waive the fact that I didn't take my SAT's or ACT's, dropped out of high school, didn't do anything for a year. I hope I'm as talented in real life as I am in my own over inflated ego. The people seem to think so. I hope that gets me in.
Why is every woman in my life deciding to reject me all at once? Do they think I'm obnoxious, or just spineless? What is it about me that is so hard to respect? If anyone out there hates me or has hated me in the past for what they would describe as legitimate, personal reasons, please tell me why. It's important.
Annie, maybe you can shed some light? I know I can rely on you to do so poetically.
Oh, who the fuck am I kidding. Every request for a response that I've sent out to girls in the past few months has been met with silence. Why should this be any different.
Here's to zero progress.