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Tonight has been shitty. I really didn't spend much time with Jay, I thought I would have, my predictions were way off. She's spending the night, and is sleeping, I didn't get the chance to give her a hug or a kiss before she went to sleep, or to say I love you. I've said maybe a total of 20 sentences to her today. I'm being emo because I am ragging, and things aren't like they use to be anymore. I guess it's my fault. I just don't want to be fucked over, I say I am not scared about being with her anymore, but I still am deep down inside. The worst feeling in the world is to be let down by someone you love, and care about. If that's to happen ever again, I give up. There will only be a couple of things that I will care about. That will be my family, my education, a select few of friends, and my band. So I guess I am just venting, because when I am ragging, it all comes out. But like I said, certain things just should not be said, to prevent conflict. So I think I'm just gonna go sleep, or play a game. Later.