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I think my hypersensitivity, paranoia and insecurity are winning out. I think I am driving myself absolutely crazy for no reason and it's hard to deal with. It's hard to fix. But I'm feeling better today. Sometimes I think I just need a break. I seem to be more of a guest star than a part of the group and I think that maybe, just maybe, it's going to be okay. It was hard because for awhile I really was a part of the group and it felt so good and it was so fun. It was a shock to have it change so suddenly and to have no support waiting for me when everything else fell through and I think it made it harder to accept when it was happening and extremely hard to work through when it actually happened. More later maybeeee.