dear god, with love!

[grrlgerm]

♥ me
♥ me not.
my brain,
they are attacking my emotions.
my feelings that died 13months ago.

dear god,
help me. spare me from unwanted thoughts
of killing that humanoid. i would insert a timebomb into
that humanoid's mouth if i have the ability function like a
terrorist.
dear god,
thank you for the soothing prayers that you bring out from
my dear lips. it calms me down.

dont get me wrong,
i love my life right now. it's beautiful because i am surrounded
by beautiful humans who appreciate me for who i am.
i am blessed now. alhamdulilah.

dear god,
i love you more than him.
dear god,
thank you for the 2nd chance.
dear god,
i am repent.