feeling much better...
yeah i feel kinda foolish writing that entry last night...not that the future doesnt depress me but theres no reason to dwell on it now, is there? my relationship with matt is the best thing that has happened to me in a very long time and i cant allow my own thoughts and fears scare me away from the amazing time i am having now. sure may is soon, but thursday is sooner and that means i will finally be with him again. theres something about those nights when youre the only one awake and thinking that brings out the worst in you...and makes you write a ridiculous live journal entry about it. but i am happy-the happiest ive been in years-and will worry about the future when the future comes.
and i'll be ready for it...
and i'll be ready for it...