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so i'm in my computer class right now...trying very hard not to cry or scream or lunge out of my chair and gouge my teacher's eyes out. i don't know why this happens...i don't know why some teachers decide to hate one of their students for no reason. it's intro to computers for shit's sake...if i don't GRADUATE because of this pile of BULLSHIT then i am going to have a freak out.
aside from that, life is just lovely. i got a phone call from my "best friend" at home today...actually it wasn't even a phone call, just a text message. but it made me miss her so so much. i hate that such a tiny insignificant thing has once again come between our friendship-as it has our entire lives-but i'm hoping that maybe now we can fix it...i mean we are adults and i'm sure we can forgive and try to forget. try.
for the first time in my life, the one thing i can say that is making me happy is my "relationship situation". i'm actually...happy right now. like for real. i was telling my mom about him and she asked me what's wrong with him (as there usually is one problem that eats away at me with a boy)...and i thought it over for a minute and said..."nothing." there is honestly nothing wrong right now :knock on wood: and this boy is actually someone who is keeping my interest and makes me laugh and has a brain and is really attractive...it's weird. it's nice to feel good and confident about something that you are NEVER good and confident about. especially when you have other things to worry about. like your computer class.
so yeah...trying to pass time away in this ridiculous class. looking forward to tonight-MNDC halloween style!! how wonderful to not have rehearsal anymore...
<3
aside from that, life is just lovely. i got a phone call from my "best friend" at home today...actually it wasn't even a phone call, just a text message. but it made me miss her so so much. i hate that such a tiny insignificant thing has once again come between our friendship-as it has our entire lives-but i'm hoping that maybe now we can fix it...i mean we are adults and i'm sure we can forgive and try to forget. try.
for the first time in my life, the one thing i can say that is making me happy is my "relationship situation". i'm actually...happy right now. like for real. i was telling my mom about him and she asked me what's wrong with him (as there usually is one problem that eats away at me with a boy)...and i thought it over for a minute and said..."nothing." there is honestly nothing wrong right now :knock on wood: and this boy is actually someone who is keeping my interest and makes me laugh and has a brain and is really attractive...it's weird. it's nice to feel good and confident about something that you are NEVER good and confident about. especially when you have other things to worry about. like your computer class.
so yeah...trying to pass time away in this ridiculous class. looking forward to tonight-MNDC halloween style!! how wonderful to not have rehearsal anymore...
<3