Here Goes Nothin'
Thest past few days have been pretty uneventful but very insightful, for me at least...I dont think I'll be able to capture it to my entry but w/e...
Friday, I spent the day at my moms office which was a lot of fun because I have not been there in over a month. There are so many changes going on to the actual building and so much growth that it amazes me. It's something that I am really considering going into because its such a great thing---I just feel bad not working for it because Haha and my dad and everyone else have worked so hard so we can have the things we have today--so thats great..plus i really really enjoy business...hehe...I felt more proud to be the boss' grandatughter, daughter and niece than I usually do...although I always feel very very proud (dont get me wrong or ne thing!)
Shabbat at Alisons house was great. There were no adults...just me Alison Adam Sam and Lisa (her cousins). We had shabbat all together--we just chilled and talked...I kinda felt like Friends (the show)...cuz we were just young people hanging out..and it was just the same type of conversation they have [or used to have :( ...] Also They are all family but I really felt like family, they were talking about things that had another friend had been there,I dont know if they would have spoken about these things...that made feel good--just the fact that I have a very very extended family...
Today was a funny day. Me and Janna are the only kids home and lala and haha werent home either so it was just us. Friday evening I was the only kid home. I really didnt enjoy the feeling of being an only child. It was very odd...like something was missing. I am so happy to have siblings and to get along with them. But you really do get more attention when you're an only child...hehe---I didnt like it all that much but w/e..it was nice--just for the quiet and privacy!(something that is very very seldom to find in my house..but if u search hard enoough [and have a lock on your door] you can find some)
I had a boring day, but my dad kept making remarks about me going to college--and I think he is expecting me to be home more than I am actually planning on being home...he is becoming more in denial than before--its a little funny to see him--but sad at the same time...I went to the Pearlsons to feed and play with Toby. He's so cute! I took him for a walk--and he was SOOOOO happy, he peed on every tree (there and back)...and I met some nice Sears delivery people on the way...hehe....
Tonight we all went to Lorie's house. Me Lorie Josh Allie Alison Ilana (A+B) Marc Rebecca Sara Devora Adinah and her cousin...it was so nice for us to just chill. To hang out like old time (tear)...Adinah has a video/camera that she was using and taping us--and it reminded me of the Eve 6 viedo, Heres to the night...where they are all just having a good time and its just such a nice memory to have--of us laughing and singing, making fun of each other, just chilling and talking about every day stuff!
I took Alison home (as i drove Janines car which was good but I like mine better)...and she was telling me about her new experiences and thoughts about keeping shabbat. And she was discussing her feelings with me and I relate to all of them becaue it's things that I have been through and battled myself with keeping shabbat. I am so glad that she is taking Shabbat upon herself. It really makes me so happy- but I just wish that I could share my feelings a little more with her or the way I feel on things...I just feel like I didnt help. And I feel like I can help her and I have the ability to--and I'm sure that the things I said did effect her in some way but its not what she needed. She was looking for something else in me to give to her (something that she and I both know I have) and I didnt perform. It's also something in her life that I would like to be a part of--and for some reason I feel like I lost my chance tonight-she is going to look for what she needed in someone else, when it could have been me. Ok, maybe I am going to much into it-but I dont like to dissapoint her...and myself for that matter. Well, we will see what happens with that--I hope she wont give up on me. (I'll probably talk to her about it anyway...yay me-sharing my feelings...hehe)
I have been writing this for nearly a half hour--and I'm tired..time to go to sleep!!!!
PS--this guy comes to our house to cut my moms hair and he is so cool. I was talking to him and he is like a celebrity hair cutter. He used to cut Lisa Kudrow's (Phoebe) hair. I thought that was sooooo awesome. Also J. Lo, Marc Anthony, Gweneth Paltro etc...its so cool- He has an agent and everything-to get him hair jobs..I know its a little wierd but still cool..and He didnt have Lisa's phone number...hahah (I had to ask. LoL) Gnite All.
Friday, I spent the day at my moms office which was a lot of fun because I have not been there in over a month. There are so many changes going on to the actual building and so much growth that it amazes me. It's something that I am really considering going into because its such a great thing---I just feel bad not working for it because Haha and my dad and everyone else have worked so hard so we can have the things we have today--so thats great..plus i really really enjoy business...hehe...I felt more proud to be the boss' grandatughter, daughter and niece than I usually do...although I always feel very very proud (dont get me wrong or ne thing!)
Shabbat at Alisons house was great. There were no adults...just me Alison Adam Sam and Lisa (her cousins). We had shabbat all together--we just chilled and talked...I kinda felt like Friends (the show)...cuz we were just young people hanging out..and it was just the same type of conversation they have [or used to have :( ...] Also They are all family but I really felt like family, they were talking about things that had another friend had been there,I dont know if they would have spoken about these things...that made feel good--just the fact that I have a very very extended family...
Today was a funny day. Me and Janna are the only kids home and lala and haha werent home either so it was just us. Friday evening I was the only kid home. I really didnt enjoy the feeling of being an only child. It was very odd...like something was missing. I am so happy to have siblings and to get along with them. But you really do get more attention when you're an only child...hehe---I didnt like it all that much but w/e..it was nice--just for the quiet and privacy!(something that is very very seldom to find in my house..but if u search hard enoough [and have a lock on your door] you can find some)
I had a boring day, but my dad kept making remarks about me going to college--and I think he is expecting me to be home more than I am actually planning on being home...he is becoming more in denial than before--its a little funny to see him--but sad at the same time...I went to the Pearlsons to feed and play with Toby. He's so cute! I took him for a walk--and he was SOOOOO happy, he peed on every tree (there and back)...and I met some nice Sears delivery people on the way...hehe....
Tonight we all went to Lorie's house. Me Lorie Josh Allie Alison Ilana (A+B) Marc Rebecca Sara Devora Adinah and her cousin...it was so nice for us to just chill. To hang out like old time (tear)...Adinah has a video/camera that she was using and taping us--and it reminded me of the Eve 6 viedo, Heres to the night...where they are all just having a good time and its just such a nice memory to have--of us laughing and singing, making fun of each other, just chilling and talking about every day stuff!
I took Alison home (as i drove Janines car which was good but I like mine better)...and she was telling me about her new experiences and thoughts about keeping shabbat. And she was discussing her feelings with me and I relate to all of them becaue it's things that I have been through and battled myself with keeping shabbat. I am so glad that she is taking Shabbat upon herself. It really makes me so happy- but I just wish that I could share my feelings a little more with her or the way I feel on things...I just feel like I didnt help. And I feel like I can help her and I have the ability to--and I'm sure that the things I said did effect her in some way but its not what she needed. She was looking for something else in me to give to her (something that she and I both know I have) and I didnt perform. It's also something in her life that I would like to be a part of--and for some reason I feel like I lost my chance tonight-she is going to look for what she needed in someone else, when it could have been me. Ok, maybe I am going to much into it-but I dont like to dissapoint her...and myself for that matter. Well, we will see what happens with that--I hope she wont give up on me. (I'll probably talk to her about it anyway...yay me-sharing my feelings...hehe)
I have been writing this for nearly a half hour--and I'm tired..time to go to sleep!!!!
PS--this guy comes to our house to cut my moms hair and he is so cool. I was talking to him and he is like a celebrity hair cutter. He used to cut Lisa Kudrow's (Phoebe) hair. I thought that was sooooo awesome. Also J. Lo, Marc Anthony, Gweneth Paltro etc...its so cool- He has an agent and everything-to get him hair jobs..I know its a little wierd but still cool..and He didnt have Lisa's phone number...hahah (I had to ask. LoL) Gnite All.