Greer
I'm up in the White Mountains with my grandparents.
I am no longer a high school music teacher.
I am going on a lot of trips this summer.
I really want to be a producer.
As much as I enjoy it up here, I feel so very alone. I probably should've waited a bit before going on this trip. Instead, I left immediately after being done with teaching and I think I should've enjoyed freedom with my friends before enjoying solitude in the Mountains. Don't get me wrong, I love being around my grandparents, but I do wish I had some company. Still, it's pretty wonderful up here. I'm helping my grandfather build the deck and I'm getting some music-stuff done. I'll be back soon.
Teaching was awesome. It was SUCH a weird experience, but I really feel I made an impact on some of these students. One senior even started playing upright bass because of me and she auditioned and was accepted into the UofA School of Music for bass. On top of that, I was flooded with "greatest teacher ever" cards, notes, hugs and thank-yous on my last week. Overall it was a wonderful experience, but I'm not ready to do this sort of thing full-time (though the principal thought I did a great job and would wanted to hire me anyway).
On June 17th, I leave for Peru to meet my sister and travel for a week. We're going to Machu Picchu and Lima. I'm pretty excited, it should be a blast! After that week, we're going to Ecuador to visit Max in Guayaquil. It's so very exciting, I can't wait! Max even booked my sister for a dance workshop and booked me for a concert while I'm there! Haha!
I'm working towards being a record producer. Currently, I'm producing an album for Michael Huerta's band, Ex-Cowboy. We should be done by the fall and after that I'm going to put together all the work I'm proud of in my music career into a portfolio and try to get jobs as a producer. I'm going to start at local studios, but I'm also going to be sending it to people I know in southern California to try and get work out there as well. I don't intend to move, but I would be happy to spend a month out there working on a project or something like that. Wish me luck on that front.
I've never had very strong feelings of jealousy towards anyone before. I have always felt that if a girl would rather spend time flirting with someone else, then they should just hang out with someone else. I try not to get hung up on people in that way, it just seems like a waste of energy to me...
That being said, I can't help but feel empty when I think about Hannah. I really did like her, but she was so cold and distant and I couldn't take that. I'm much more social than she is and I really want to be around people who are as social as I am. So, we decided to remain friends and I think things are OK. We've been working on a project together and I see her now as often as I ever did (which isn't often at all). Things seem OK.
However, she's been hanging around some other. guy recently and I feel jealous. I HATE this feeling. Like I said, it's a waste of energy. Even if I could be with Hannah now, it wouldn't be a good idea at all. But still, I feel so jealous that I feel she never gave me the attention she gives to this other guy. I can't stand it and there's nothing I can do. I can't stand it BECAUSE there's nothing I can do. I don't want to feel this way anymore...
I am no longer a high school music teacher.
I am going on a lot of trips this summer.
I really want to be a producer.
As much as I enjoy it up here, I feel so very alone. I probably should've waited a bit before going on this trip. Instead, I left immediately after being done with teaching and I think I should've enjoyed freedom with my friends before enjoying solitude in the Mountains. Don't get me wrong, I love being around my grandparents, but I do wish I had some company. Still, it's pretty wonderful up here. I'm helping my grandfather build the deck and I'm getting some music-stuff done. I'll be back soon.
Teaching was awesome. It was SUCH a weird experience, but I really feel I made an impact on some of these students. One senior even started playing upright bass because of me and she auditioned and was accepted into the UofA School of Music for bass. On top of that, I was flooded with "greatest teacher ever" cards, notes, hugs and thank-yous on my last week. Overall it was a wonderful experience, but I'm not ready to do this sort of thing full-time (though the principal thought I did a great job and would wanted to hire me anyway).
On June 17th, I leave for Peru to meet my sister and travel for a week. We're going to Machu Picchu and Lima. I'm pretty excited, it should be a blast! After that week, we're going to Ecuador to visit Max in Guayaquil. It's so very exciting, I can't wait! Max even booked my sister for a dance workshop and booked me for a concert while I'm there! Haha!
I'm working towards being a record producer. Currently, I'm producing an album for Michael Huerta's band, Ex-Cowboy. We should be done by the fall and after that I'm going to put together all the work I'm proud of in my music career into a portfolio and try to get jobs as a producer. I'm going to start at local studios, but I'm also going to be sending it to people I know in southern California to try and get work out there as well. I don't intend to move, but I would be happy to spend a month out there working on a project or something like that. Wish me luck on that front.
I've never had very strong feelings of jealousy towards anyone before. I have always felt that if a girl would rather spend time flirting with someone else, then they should just hang out with someone else. I try not to get hung up on people in that way, it just seems like a waste of energy to me...
That being said, I can't help but feel empty when I think about Hannah. I really did like her, but she was so cold and distant and I couldn't take that. I'm much more social than she is and I really want to be around people who are as social as I am. So, we decided to remain friends and I think things are OK. We've been working on a project together and I see her now as often as I ever did (which isn't often at all). Things seem OK.
However, she's been hanging around some other. guy recently and I feel jealous. I HATE this feeling. Like I said, it's a waste of energy. Even if I could be with Hannah now, it wouldn't be a good idea at all. But still, I feel so jealous that I feel she never gave me the attention she gives to this other guy. I can't stand it and there's nothing I can do. I can't stand it BECAUSE there's nothing I can do. I don't want to feel this way anymore...