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I don't want to go out there.
That's pretty easy to understand, I think. I don't want to go out there and tell Carly. I don't even want to talk about it. I'd almost say that I don't even want to go, but that's a lie. I want to go. I'm going.
But going out there doesn't seem like a good idea. I wonder what Johnny's going to say to Noelle. They have a pretty good set up going, they should be alright. We've just never dealt with something like this before, so... I don't know.
Carly should be fine, it'd just be for a few days. I don't like leaving her alone when she's pregnant, but I'd have my cellphone, and she's got people she can call if something happens. I'll even tell Arianna to make sure to look in on her, because if I tell Arianna, not only will she do it, she'll tell Dan. And he'll probably do it too.
I really hate planning for something like this.
I don't get it. I really, seriously, honestly don't. He wasn't the type. And I know that's stupid to say, because it's freakin' typical, but it's true. Ryan was quiet, and a good guy, and all of the shit I was reading doesn't sound like something he'd ever do. It just doesn't.
And none of us ever had a clue something was wrong. Except for Johnny. Johnny, the guy who used to be too busy picking up women and now has a baby, noticed that there was something wrong with Ryan. And even then, he still let it go. We're supposed to be able to know each other better than that.
This crap about what growing up does to you? It doesn't work for me. We're all still friends. Close friends. Even me leaving, Nick moving to Reno, and Ryan going to New York didn't change that. At least, that's what I thought.
It's not the same as high school. I get that. But people can stay together after you get out of school. Even if they end up going elsewhere, they still find each other again eventually, otherwise I wouldn't be where I am right now. How that got so screwed with Ryan, I don't know.
I sighed and rubbed my eyes, then got out of the chair I'd been sitting in for the last ten minutes, and hung up the phone.
Get it over with. You have to.
I walked into the living room, and couldn't get myself to smile when everybody looked at me. "Hey. Jules, I need you to keep an eye on Junior while I talk to Mommy in the other room for a minute, okay?"
Great, I have to look really bad if even Junior's giving me a weird look, ontop of the ones that I'm getting from Julia and Carly.
Come on Carly, let's go before she starts asking what's going on.
That's pretty easy to understand, I think. I don't want to go out there and tell Carly. I don't even want to talk about it. I'd almost say that I don't even want to go, but that's a lie. I want to go. I'm going.
But going out there doesn't seem like a good idea. I wonder what Johnny's going to say to Noelle. They have a pretty good set up going, they should be alright. We've just never dealt with something like this before, so... I don't know.
Carly should be fine, it'd just be for a few days. I don't like leaving her alone when she's pregnant, but I'd have my cellphone, and she's got people she can call if something happens. I'll even tell Arianna to make sure to look in on her, because if I tell Arianna, not only will she do it, she'll tell Dan. And he'll probably do it too.
I really hate planning for something like this.
I don't get it. I really, seriously, honestly don't. He wasn't the type. And I know that's stupid to say, because it's freakin' typical, but it's true. Ryan was quiet, and a good guy, and all of the shit I was reading doesn't sound like something he'd ever do. It just doesn't.
And none of us ever had a clue something was wrong. Except for Johnny. Johnny, the guy who used to be too busy picking up women and now has a baby, noticed that there was something wrong with Ryan. And even then, he still let it go. We're supposed to be able to know each other better than that.
This crap about what growing up does to you? It doesn't work for me. We're all still friends. Close friends. Even me leaving, Nick moving to Reno, and Ryan going to New York didn't change that. At least, that's what I thought.
It's not the same as high school. I get that. But people can stay together after you get out of school. Even if they end up going elsewhere, they still find each other again eventually, otherwise I wouldn't be where I am right now. How that got so screwed with Ryan, I don't know.
I sighed and rubbed my eyes, then got out of the chair I'd been sitting in for the last ten minutes, and hung up the phone.
Get it over with. You have to.
I walked into the living room, and couldn't get myself to smile when everybody looked at me. "Hey. Jules, I need you to keep an eye on Junior while I talk to Mommy in the other room for a minute, okay?"
Great, I have to look really bad if even Junior's giving me a weird look, ontop of the ones that I'm getting from Julia and Carly.
Come on Carly, let's go before she starts asking what's going on.