A Letter To God
Dear God,
I have heard all the stories and the songs where people had void in their lives and how You filled that void. But I already have You, that part of me has already been filled, and there is still a void. I used to think that is was because I'm shy and don't know alot of people. Just recently I've been trying to meet new people and make new friends, but also I've come to the point in my faith where I can't keep quite and can't simply let things go anymore. These two new aspects of my life are now butting heads, I'm meeting people but they are nothing like I want to know, but I can't find people like me, other than those few friends I already have. I've found myself looking at these new people and loving them but I can't just ignore their major downfalls towards you and they can accept my devotion to You. They look at me as a Jesus Freak (a term I actually embrace by the way) and they spite me for it. I, however, can't help but say my case, and they get mad when I do. It's a problem, what do I do? How can I have both, if I'm meant to have both at all. I'm not asking for anything other than a guiding hand, which you've given me always. But I do ask for others, all of the other I already know.
Help David find some peace. His anger and cynicism is getting the better of him I fear. His heart is lonely and dying for someone or something. I remember when I first met him You were so strong in his presence. I do not doubt his faith, but I think he needs You now more than ever. Please help him find some peace.
I pray for Lindsey's happiness. She is insecure in our relationship, and with good reason. She loves me and knows I love her madly, but she gets spells where she can't help but worry. I pray You give her the strength she needs to get through her sadness. I try but I can't be there all the time, keep her company when she weak.
Kenan is at a crossroads. He is struggling, as far as I can tell, with some inner and outer demons I cannot see. I'm not as close to him or Paul as I could be, but I can tell he needs guidance. Kenan is fighting to keep himself and his ideals while surrounded with the legacy his family has left for him. He what to come up and show he is capable of more. He wants to do more. He needs to know You are there and that You can help. Same with Paul, only I fear he has already accepted his fate where he stands. He seems stranded in place and doesn't know how to best cope. He has his friends, but he needs more, he needs You. I hope You can show him his way to true happiness.
Missa and Mandy are both trying to find their place as well. They have just come out of some traumatizing events in their lives and need the strength and patience to move on. May Your mercy be with them as they move into their lives, maybe not exactly where they wanted to be, but maybe at least happily going forward.
Finally for my own mom. She has served You and her family all her life, with all her strength and it is again taking it's toll, and she still has many trials ahead. May Your hand hold her and protect her so that her burdens may not be too great and that she will prevail yet again, to serve You still.
In Your son's name I pray. Amen
I have heard all the stories and the songs where people had void in their lives and how You filled that void. But I already have You, that part of me has already been filled, and there is still a void. I used to think that is was because I'm shy and don't know alot of people. Just recently I've been trying to meet new people and make new friends, but also I've come to the point in my faith where I can't keep quite and can't simply let things go anymore. These two new aspects of my life are now butting heads, I'm meeting people but they are nothing like I want to know, but I can't find people like me, other than those few friends I already have. I've found myself looking at these new people and loving them but I can't just ignore their major downfalls towards you and they can accept my devotion to You. They look at me as a Jesus Freak (a term I actually embrace by the way) and they spite me for it. I, however, can't help but say my case, and they get mad when I do. It's a problem, what do I do? How can I have both, if I'm meant to have both at all. I'm not asking for anything other than a guiding hand, which you've given me always. But I do ask for others, all of the other I already know.
Help David find some peace. His anger and cynicism is getting the better of him I fear. His heart is lonely and dying for someone or something. I remember when I first met him You were so strong in his presence. I do not doubt his faith, but I think he needs You now more than ever. Please help him find some peace.
I pray for Lindsey's happiness. She is insecure in our relationship, and with good reason. She loves me and knows I love her madly, but she gets spells where she can't help but worry. I pray You give her the strength she needs to get through her sadness. I try but I can't be there all the time, keep her company when she weak.
Kenan is at a crossroads. He is struggling, as far as I can tell, with some inner and outer demons I cannot see. I'm not as close to him or Paul as I could be, but I can tell he needs guidance. Kenan is fighting to keep himself and his ideals while surrounded with the legacy his family has left for him. He what to come up and show he is capable of more. He wants to do more. He needs to know You are there and that You can help. Same with Paul, only I fear he has already accepted his fate where he stands. He seems stranded in place and doesn't know how to best cope. He has his friends, but he needs more, he needs You. I hope You can show him his way to true happiness.
Missa and Mandy are both trying to find their place as well. They have just come out of some traumatizing events in their lives and need the strength and patience to move on. May Your mercy be with them as they move into their lives, maybe not exactly where they wanted to be, but maybe at least happily going forward.
Finally for my own mom. She has served You and her family all her life, with all her strength and it is again taking it's toll, and she still has many trials ahead. May Your hand hold her and protect her so that her burdens may not be too great and that she will prevail yet again, to serve You still.
In Your son's name I pray. Amen