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As She Remembers
By: Me
Sometimes I walk alone at night.
I try to figure out why it's so hard for me to fight,
Why I've always tried to suppress the thoughts in my head,
the ones that wish me dead.
It seems that all was cold and dark along that path to my heart.
It seems that no one could see through the mask,
could see the hidden struggle
and everything goes back to the start
The beginning when all fell apart
the time when all broke down,
and the tears could not be heard,
but the pain lingered on,
gasping for air as it sucked all joy from her heart.
She could not even whisper her longing to be held,
her longing to forget,
her longing to be heard and loved.
She could not even face her own body,
her own face as she woke.
She was alone
She was alone because no one would ever know what made her cry,
and die and turn to ashes inside.
Because the silence was her only hope,
her mask of joy.
To understand -
She lost herself that day.
She lost all trust.
It was too much for her small heart to take,
too much for her small mind to forget.
Can it ever go away?
Please understand how hard it is.
Learn to be patient as she begins to wake,
reborn into a new world
that you have helped create.
Every day that has gone by
and everytime i wish i tried
a little harder.
I remember the help that you all gave
when all I wanted
from that day on
was to lay in a grave.
To end it all
that very day
to let go of all my tasks
and throw my life away
But there you were
there by my side
helping me through
that bumpy ride
so thanks so much
for all youve done
and for keeping me
away from the gun
So thank you all
for being a great friend
and i really do hope
our friendships will never end.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
This is dedicated to all my great friends who never left me behind when i was going thought all my troubles in life. you know who you are. and i love you soo mcuh. words can not described the love and thanks for you all. so thank you.
Much love,
Nikki*
By: Me
Sometimes I walk alone at night.
I try to figure out why it's so hard for me to fight,
Why I've always tried to suppress the thoughts in my head,
the ones that wish me dead.
It seems that all was cold and dark along that path to my heart.
It seems that no one could see through the mask,
could see the hidden struggle
and everything goes back to the start
The beginning when all fell apart
the time when all broke down,
and the tears could not be heard,
but the pain lingered on,
gasping for air as it sucked all joy from her heart.
She could not even whisper her longing to be held,
her longing to forget,
her longing to be heard and loved.
She could not even face her own body,
her own face as she woke.
She was alone
She was alone because no one would ever know what made her cry,
and die and turn to ashes inside.
Because the silence was her only hope,
her mask of joy.
To understand -
She lost herself that day.
She lost all trust.
It was too much for her small heart to take,
too much for her small mind to forget.
Can it ever go away?
Please understand how hard it is.
Learn to be patient as she begins to wake,
reborn into a new world
that you have helped create.
Every day that has gone by
and everytime i wish i tried
a little harder.
I remember the help that you all gave
when all I wanted
from that day on
was to lay in a grave.
To end it all
that very day
to let go of all my tasks
and throw my life away
But there you were
there by my side
helping me through
that bumpy ride
so thanks so much
for all youve done
and for keeping me
away from the gun
So thank you all
for being a great friend
and i really do hope
our friendships will never end.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
This is dedicated to all my great friends who never left me behind when i was going thought all my troubles in life. you know who you are. and i love you soo mcuh. words can not described the love and thanks for you all. so thank you.
Much love,
Nikki*