Cracks in my ceiling. Get your ass of my wall!
For a day in which I am not inclined to do anything at all (being the tiresome day-by-day rituals of slavery and using my head) I feel as if I am being forced to suffer the consequence of yesterdays overwhelming slack on my behalf.
Of which I feel as if I should not have to do and I should be returned to my bed immediately.
I need some Advil.
So at work the other day I couldn’t help but notice everyone I was working with had rings on their happy little fingers. Not many, if not all, are relatively close to my age which started to bother me a bit as while they are married or have anniversary rings and romantic shit as such, I continue to hold an incredible talent for scaring off the opposite sex and anything that renders the idea of commitment. I felt lonely and actually began to think that maybe there was something wrong with me for not being able to grasp the relationship idea where as I used to believe it was them who were terribly mistaken and foolish to let another in on them. I had learnt my lesson and was happy to be alone, and had friends there when it was overwhelming. Why am I letting such stupid things, such as other peoples relationships and shit, make me want what they have?
Sure I understand (all to well) what it feels like to be alone but I never considered having someone of whom I shared all my secrets and deepest dreams. As one calls it I am emotionally young and have lots to learn. Well, I don’t think I want to ‘learn’ if it means my hearts just going to be torn apart again and again.
Just another load of shit ♥
Of which I feel as if I should not have to do and I should be returned to my bed immediately.
I need some Advil.
So at work the other day I couldn’t help but notice everyone I was working with had rings on their happy little fingers. Not many, if not all, are relatively close to my age which started to bother me a bit as while they are married or have anniversary rings and romantic shit as such, I continue to hold an incredible talent for scaring off the opposite sex and anything that renders the idea of commitment. I felt lonely and actually began to think that maybe there was something wrong with me for not being able to grasp the relationship idea where as I used to believe it was them who were terribly mistaken and foolish to let another in on them. I had learnt my lesson and was happy to be alone, and had friends there when it was overwhelming. Why am I letting such stupid things, such as other peoples relationships and shit, make me want what they have?
Sure I understand (all to well) what it feels like to be alone but I never considered having someone of whom I shared all my secrets and deepest dreams. As one calls it I am emotionally young and have lots to learn. Well, I don’t think I want to ‘learn’ if it means my hearts just going to be torn apart again and again.
Just another load of shit ♥