update of my life
lots going on right now, almost too much to say. lets see, i bought a new car. my stupid 2001 oldsmobile silohouette kept breaking down, the same stupid part OVER and OVER. it was costing me hundreds of dollars every other month, and one month my parents even had to foot the bill. so i now have a jeep cherokee. black...LOVE IT! i am trying to save up for the stupid taxes but everytime i get a little money saved up, it disappears. like for instance, tony, one of our 11 cats, got a urinary tract infection. so to the vet he went costing $125. then our plumbing went out yesterday. we have a plumber coming today and he has to completely redo our pipes in the backyard at $116 an hour. OMG!!!!!!! so there went the rest of the money. i am sad cause my parents went on vacation and usually when they went on vacation, i had to come to their house to stay to take care of my grandma and since she died in september, i am not here to take care of her and i am really feeling it. i miss her so much. sometimes i think i hear her voice when i am alone in my parents house. she calls out "heidi?" yeah i must be going crazy. i miss her! kaleb says everything now, he is 18 months old and you can actually hold a conversation with him like a little adult, only adults dont say "shut up" quite as much i am sure. i hate my job and am currently looking for a new one. anything to get me away from the one i am at now. i refuse to do retail, i am looking for another customer service job but one that will appreciate me and give me the benefits i deserve. i keep asking my boss for benefits and he keeps saying no but you can ask me later and maybe i will have a different answer. fuck him. my horse alex is coming home this month and he is finally TRAINED. cant wait to get on him and now for the best news of all, my sister is now cancer free! they got all the melanoma and now she has to go to the doctor every three months for the next year or two, then every six months for a couple of years, then yearly for the rest of her life. i am so happy for her. i prayed like you wouldnt believe and my OCD got out of control. you should see the rituals i do now and i cant stop. oh well, you just gotta love me!