Brea's Rant For The Month!
Well Ted and I have just had our first big major fight! I'm sitting at the computer desk not being able to see cos my eyes are all blurry from crying, since I was picked up from Hayley's last night I have done nothing but cry! The stupid thing is that it was over something so trivial and petty that it should never have happened! What happened was I was going to meet Ted at maccas at five yesterday I got a call from him saying that he was at his uncle's house and would i be able to meet him there, I told him that i was getting dropped off at hayley's cos I wanted to see aimie before she left and he flipped! He told me that he wasn't coming that it was too much of an effort, that he didn't know where it was which is not a good excuse cos I messaged him the directions and her address! I then sent him a message saying that if he wanted to act like that then fine that i didn't care and that i was really angry with him and he sent me one back "why the fuck are you pissed with me 4? Because I don't feel like going out and being ur fucking taxi, then going back to ur place and putting up with your mum and sister I don't give a fuck anymore. I'm sick of this shit" It should never have escalated to that point, it seems to me that cos I didn't do what he wanted me to do he cracked the shits, and that is not fair cos he does not have any control over me! The worst thing though is the last message that he sent me, I would never ever think about taking advantage of him or using him, I don't expect him to take me places, when I suggest that we go to town, it's not cos I want to go on my own and leave him there, it's cos I want to spend time with him doing something! The really worst thing was him saying that he didn't care anymore cos it implied that he didn't care enough about me to actually talk to me about what i was feeling, that he didn't love me anymore and that he didn't want to continue going out with me anymore! I don't want to lose him I love him so much, I'm so very confused at the moment, I don't know what to do! I don't want to break up with him, especially over something that should never have happened in the first place! I don't know whether you guys remember when Dom and I broke up but this feels like a million times worse, and the horrible thing is that is so petty and childish! *sobs*