it doesnt go away
i talked to spoon last night and it was really nice, i told him the truth and he was happy and understanding, he doesnt feel any different and neither do i. it doesnt go away, once you care about someone that much i dont see how it can, you can be upset with them and hate the things they do but you cant hate them. i cant hate him, i dont want to hate him and i dont. just talking to him just made me feel happy, i deserve to be happy. im so glad hes back in portland and i cant wait to see him and everyone else in june.. im saving up all my money just to go back home and no one can stop me, tom doesnt want me to go back, but i have to go home, i told him he could come with me and he said he would but now he doesnt know, west bend is his home hes lived here is hole life and he is scared to leave..