promised a week
She promised an hour or two a day of one on one time for a week and see what happens... tomorrow it will have been a week and she has actually followed through a few days out of the week. It wasn't an hour but it was something. We will see what she says tomorrow but honestly I have no idea what is going on with her cause we only had a few days and due to not communicating there is SO MUCH BUILT UP that we never even got to now. It was all just trying to figure out HOW we can communicate if at all and the answer seems to be... we can't. I asked for speaking, text, email, use fucking carrier pigeons... anything. I don't know, but I know I am too tired to keep fighting for her to communicate with me so we can actually work through our issues. As long as she keeps pretending everything is normal instead of acknowledging and working on our problems I can't. I didn't grow up in an abusive house where I had to pretend everything is ok to the point where I normalized it and think this is how it should be. I can't not want to resolve issues and work through them with my partner. I can't keep feeling miserable while I deal with a stepford wife who claims nothing is wrong. My kids watching avatar and it's that super creepy "there is no war in bah-sing-se." It's that feeling in a psychological horror where you know everything is wrong but it seems perfectly normal on the surface but everyone should be panicking cause there is a monster killing people and everyone refuses to even acknowledge it and pretends it's normal. I can't do that. To be fair, we can talk sometimes without it turning into her running for the hills if we keep it so short that we don't even have time to find a solution... so that's something?