So, the reason for no updates or posts recently . . .
So those of you who have read my more personal posts, first this and then this, know that my life has been currently in a bit of an upheaval, and it has been even more so since this last weekend of October.
You see I just recently got my laptop dug out of the packing mess and got it programmed into my mother's wireless.
Yep, that's right, I did what I've been thinking about for months and moved out of the place I've been currently living in while my father is out on the road.
Unfortunately, he is not yet aware of this fact.
You see he left for Reno the Wednesday before I left and I decided to seize the opportunity. So I paid the water bill and rent, left checks for the divorce lawyer and child support for my dear stepmother--who apparently changed the locks on the old house--and began to pack. Mom came down and we stuffed all but my college books and some other unimportant items and furniture in to her beetle and my focus and drove to Idaho.
I am understandably cold, though it has yet to snow, but I'm acclimating to the weather slowly.
Since my concentration has been crap since this whole mess started and I've not been able to pay my classes the attention they deserve, I decided I'm going to take a year and start again next fall and in the mean time, get a job and save some money so that I can strike it out on my own and not have to worry about anyone or thing but me and my goals in life.
It's been refreshingly liberating even if I'm a bit nervous about tell my father I just up and left, but really I think I've put up with enough of his and my stepmother's crap and all the horrid emotional and mental hits they've been landing on my psyche.
And, hey, the job market here is even better, I've only been here a week and I've had one interview. Of course it help that my Step-dad drives all over town and can find job openings for me( hooray public transportation).
Over all despite my impending doom in informing my father of my . . . desertion, I am feeling better than i have in months( granted this is both emotional and mental, physically I'm on my period and have caught a cold so while my mind and heart are feeling better my body has laid me low).
In another bit of news the day I left I met up with my ex. It was . . . good to see him, really good, and I wasn't really surprised that I felt the same for him as I did when when we broke up, but with everything going on and him doing the amateur MMA thing and getting caught all the time, I was literally in pieces and I couldn't handle the guy I loved getting hurt all the time. He's still doing it, to my knowledge, I haven't had the chance to talk to him much yet, but we've started talking again which is good real good. I still have strong feeling for him and I think my compromised emotional state kept me from really being affectionate and forward with how I felt about him, hopefully we can work on it and who knows, maybe there is a future with us together or maybe just a friendship, who knows
You see I just recently got my laptop dug out of the packing mess and got it programmed into my mother's wireless.
Yep, that's right, I did what I've been thinking about for months and moved out of the place I've been currently living in while my father is out on the road.
Unfortunately, he is not yet aware of this fact.
You see he left for Reno the Wednesday before I left and I decided to seize the opportunity. So I paid the water bill and rent, left checks for the divorce lawyer and child support for my dear stepmother--who apparently changed the locks on the old house--and began to pack. Mom came down and we stuffed all but my college books and some other unimportant items and furniture in to her beetle and my focus and drove to Idaho.
I am understandably cold, though it has yet to snow, but I'm acclimating to the weather slowly.
Since my concentration has been crap since this whole mess started and I've not been able to pay my classes the attention they deserve, I decided I'm going to take a year and start again next fall and in the mean time, get a job and save some money so that I can strike it out on my own and not have to worry about anyone or thing but me and my goals in life.
It's been refreshingly liberating even if I'm a bit nervous about tell my father I just up and left, but really I think I've put up with enough of his and my stepmother's crap and all the horrid emotional and mental hits they've been landing on my psyche.
And, hey, the job market here is even better, I've only been here a week and I've had one interview. Of course it help that my Step-dad drives all over town and can find job openings for me( hooray public transportation).
Over all despite my impending doom in informing my father of my . . . desertion, I am feeling better than i have in months( granted this is both emotional and mental, physically I'm on my period and have caught a cold so while my mind and heart are feeling better my body has laid me low).
In another bit of news the day I left I met up with my ex. It was . . . good to see him, really good, and I wasn't really surprised that I felt the same for him as I did when when we broke up, but with everything going on and him doing the amateur MMA thing and getting caught all the time, I was literally in pieces and I couldn't handle the guy I loved getting hurt all the time. He's still doing it, to my knowledge, I haven't had the chance to talk to him much yet, but we've started talking again which is good real good. I still have strong feeling for him and I think my compromised emotional state kept me from really being affectionate and forward with how I felt about him, hopefully we can work on it and who knows, maybe there is a future with us together or maybe just a friendship, who knows