i Miss My Friendds.
Well - i Know i Said That i Wasn'tt Gonna Write in Here Anymore. But Candy Apple Candace Was Rightt. Pshh. But Yeah, There's Alot On My Mind And Since My Friends Suck At The Moment i Decided To Come Here. So Anyway..School...Ugh...School. Wow, i Hate it With A Passion. UGGHH. i Have No One in My Classes. i Hardly See Anyone in The Halls, And All in All it Just Blows. - Hay Janelle Youu Aren'tt Alone. And i Miss San Antonio So Much it's Eatingg Me Alive. UGH. i'm Gonna Be UGH-ing Quite A Bit Here. Alright So.. i Miss Frankie And Barbara Like Whoa There Pony. Oh Yeah - And Janelle Cause i Don'tt Get To Pointt And Laugh At Her Anymore. ( Well i Do, But Only To Her Pictures That i Have On My Ceilingg That i Masterbate To Everynightt ) Have i Said Too Much? No? Okay! But i Love Those Girls With Whoa There Pony Love. Alrightty Well Hmm... So Much More To Say - But My Minds Goingg Blank On Me. But i Miss The Whole World Rightt About Now. Life Stinks. it's Like Walkingg in On Youur Grandma While She's Takingg A Poo. UGH i Hate it. School is The Biggest Depression Right Now For Some Reason, i Thinkk. Especially The Fact That i Have Softball First Period Sucks Gonads Cause They Don'tt Give Us Enough Time To Get Ready So i Feel And Look Like Crap For The Rest Of The Day. Ugh. idk..it All Just Sucks. i Hate it i Hate it i Hate it i Hate it i Hate it i Hate it i Hate it i Hate it .. etc. And i'm Getting Frustrated By Everythingg. i Go To Sleep Way Late.. And i Get All Cranky And i'm A "B" Word For The Rest Of The Day. And i Don'tt Wanna Curse Anymore, i Don'tt Like The Way it Sounds. Eww. And i Miss Valerie Cause She's Grounded And We Don'tt Do Anything Anymore. And Her Whole Family Hates Me. Which Totally Sucks. And it Feels Like i'm Grounded Cause i Don'tt Have Fun Anymore. And i Miss Talkingg To Maegan. She Was So Crazy - i Lovedd it. And i Was Never Afraid To Be Myself Aroundd Her. i Just Miss Talkingg To The Girl - But She Has To Hang Aroundd Gay Teresa And Teresa Can Kiss My Ass That i Don'tt Have. ( Okay - That Was Mean, But i'm Not Sorry. ) And Thomas - Wow idk What Happened To Thomas Over The Summer But Wow - Something Good Sure Did Happen To That Boy. And i Checked My Bill Today For My Cellular, And Uhh - As Of Rightt Now i'm Over 264 Minutes. Wow i Always Go Over. My Parents Are Gonna Prolly Take it Away Againn. But Alrightt -And i'm Really Bummed That My Brothers Not Movingg Back Here Cause i Really Wanted To Use Him For Rides. Well That's Not Gonna Happen. And This Stuff Thats Goingg On With Philip Blows The Pee Pee. Friendds is Where it Ends. Hopefully it Won'tt Fade Like it Did With Me And Tyler. But Now Tyler's Talkingg Again. Yeye For Thatt. And Now Shawns Mad At Me. Or Somethingg. i'm Not Even Sure Anymore. But Yeah - i Have A Big Number in Enemies Rightt Now. And That Sucks. But Hmm What Else... i Pretty Much Hate How i'm Feelingg. i Hate The Feelingg. And i Don'tt Get This Feelingg Every So Often. - And it Sucks. And i Never Wanna Have it Again. i Think The Last Time That i Had This Feelingg Was in The 6th Grade Or Somethingg. But i'm Gonna Handle This One Better. And i'm Also Depressed Cause i've Been Eatingg Alot Ever Since Summer Started. And i See My Love Handles All Over The Place - it Sucks. And i Feel Like Cryingg Everytime i See Them. it Sucks - i Hate Myselff. And i'll Never Forget What Chung Said To Me Over The Summer - About Me Not Lookingg Anerexic Anymore - Which is Telling Me That i Pretty Much Gained Some Weightt - Ugh. But i Love Chung And He's Been Too Busy To Talk To Me And ive Wanted SO BAD To Talk To Him, But He Won'tt Take Me Serious Anymore. Ugh Chung - if Youu Read This Youu Asian - Youu Need To TALK TO ME ALREADY. And Lately All i've Wanted - is To Be As Mean As Possible To Everyone. And When i Do - it Feels Awesome. Why? idk. But i Get Like That When i'm Not Happy. And i'm Not Happy. And i Haven'tt Been For Quite A While. i Hate it. Well - Talk To Me if Youu Care.
- i Hate Beingg Negative -
Don'tt Get Me All Wrongg.
i'm Don'tt Want Anyones' Sympathy.
i'm Not Dyingg,
i'll Live.