......sorry in advance?
what is it with human behavior? Nothing in this life, this world, makes sense...it's all backwards from the way it should be. what's an example...it's not a good one but here goes...what if you went up to somebody and said hey do you want to hang out with me? you didn't really know the person just seen them around...what makes that person not want to hang out and get to know another human being, share lives. dude if someone came up to me and said that i would full on be like "heck yea!" and we'd be bowling in the next 15 minutes. i don't know, what about being influenced beyond belief by another person and doing things that you don't believe in or stand for. you know that's not what your heart wants to do but you do it anyways. and how about apathy....how selfish can we be to be blessed with beautiful scenery and food and clothing and motivation and inspiration is coming in from everywhere and yet all one wants to do is sleep. to sit down and worry and watch other lives take place. and faces seem to blend all together. beauty is no longer in the physical attributes, thank goodness, but in what the soul does to the physical attributes and how the emotion registers. we have been created with this stimulus in our eyes that makes us appreciate and stand in awe. sometimes i just wonder why people have to be insecure....son't we know that everyone else is to busy feeling insecure themselves to see that we are feeling insecure. no one understands me, no one relates, and when i feel like i've found someone to relate to and share my life with my doubts and curiosities and hopes and interests that person i have selected doens't want to be selected could care less. what's the deal with that. what is it that goes on in our minds that makes us turn away from a person opening their heart to us. why doesn't everyone want to be everyone elses friend? i understand not being compatable and what not but then again i don't we are all children of God. Yes some names are written in the Book of Life and others aren't but don't we all deserve to be? yes. aren't we all wanted to be written down? yes. but yet how can we get to work with that when people don't respond to kindness. i apologize for not making sense. i am not good with words. that's another reason to add to my list for why i am in love with God. He understand me the way no one on this earth will ever be able to understand me. Even a husband if i ever get married will know my life the best he can but will never know me as an entirety. i want people to see what i put my energy in to. i want to be loved for it and i want to do the same for others.