i love santa barbara california! everyone has to come visit me!
i am here in santa barbara with my cousin and it is the most beautiful place ever!! i want to live here. it is so amazing with the mountains right beside the ocean and i have found new things to be passionate about!! like...surfing! oh it's so great and so addictive. the first time you get up on a wave you are hooked. and skateboarding is awesome too! ha! me and my friends lucy, alicia and leah are in a skateboarding club! yes yes we are!! it's fun we all skateboard together and there is a skate park here in santa barbara. Calvary chapel is great too there was such a great sermon today. so yes this place is dreamland on earth!! good looking guys here too. though i must admit that i'm sort of not in to the whole needing a guy thing. I don't know i'm not attracted to guys when i first see them anymore. like there was this really handsome guy at the restaraunt we went to and i mean really handsome and i don't know i knew his face was attractive but i ws not attracted to him. it is really imporatant to me that the guy i date be absolutely in love with God. It's not enough for him to just be a christian or say he is or that he believes nor is it ok if i say that but i want to be in a relationship in that way with a guy that will challenge me in my faith and will not hinder my relationship with God. i mean not saying that i wouldn't be friends with this handsome guy i would i want to be friends with everyone but i want to date and potentially marry a man who finds his purpose and meaning in God. I want a mate that will stand in awe of God's glory with me. I guess i've matured ay?! haha to not be attracted to a guy when i don't know anything about him. especially since when girls do that they just make up the guys personality in their head and then they end up being a huge letdown. i want to be able to talk about john piper with them and talk about my struggles. i know that when both of us are in love with God we will be able to love each other. i want someone to love God with me. that is going to be awesome. California really is wonderful it's just that the people i love aren't here with me. if everyone i loved would just move out here too man oh man!! this place would be crazy awesome!! but only according to me. so everyone should at least load up and come out here for their spring break!! i love everyone and i miss everyone. i miss the community! i miss new brookland tavern and doc sommers band. those boys are breaking up and oh how that stinks! that band was absolutely captivating!! they changed so many lives they help christians grow in their faith. i miss that community of christians. it's funny i was talking to my cousin and i was telling her that i have only had two major crushes in my life one was shane hooper from the 7th to the 10th grade and christian tyler who i am still captivated by. and guess what my cousin aimee's fiance's name is shane and my cousin out here, gina, her husbands name is christian. interesante mucho!! and yet i think that i will be alone for a while because i have been out here in los anglese california for months now and i have seen famous people, hung out with famous people, gone to church, two different churches and i have been to many different places out here and i still think about the same person. He'll never like me and he's not allowed to i guess and that's ok with me but the next guy is going to have to be amazing to get me to become interested in him.