Inevitable
I remember when life was simple. I lived in the present and enjoyed life because i was simply living and not worrying about past or future. I think i had maybe four good years of that when i was five to about eight. I grew up a lot faster than most kids. I grew up making a career for myself instead of making a house for my Barbies out of glue and popsicle sticks. But i have to say I loved it then. It's easy to say that i regret my decisions now because i'm not living them. Perhaps I make too many decisions based upon emotion. Maybe that's an OK thing but i believe that we all have to go through trials and tribulations in our lives to become the person that believes in things and thinks and analyzes. I do believe I have found myself and I know some of the things I want. I just want what God wants. What God wants for my life and what God wants for other people's lives. I want to do His work here on earth and I want people to be able to have the relationship that I have with Him. Every ear should be able to hear and at least choose. I don't regret things, I regret sin but not events that have happened, because I believe that God has a Will for my life and that I am in His Will. I think that's the main thing that keeps me going. God wants me where I am. But I am certainly over my hiatus. At the same time I just pray that God close doors to things he doesn't want me to do and opens them to things he does want me to do.