More ramblings...
I just talked to my Uncle Scott for a half an hour. He's my mom's brother who, according to my other aunts and uncles, had always been very protective of and close to my mom. He called me about a week ago and I never returned his call until tonight. When I talk to my family, the conversation always ends up being about my step-dad, Mark, and everything I went through as a kid growing up with him. The conversations I've had with my family about this have always left me a little saddened and making me not want to talk to anyone for a while. Tonight was different. I've always felt a little out of the family because I never got to spend too much time with anyone from my mom's family when I was a kid. But in the past couple months, from sporadic conversations with my family, I've realized that despite my sort of "absence" from the family, I am very much like them. This makes me happier than I ever could imagined. Why is that? I feel like I am just now starting to be comfortable with myself and the person I am, and more and more, I've found that certain things about me remind members in my family of, well, other members in my family. :) I think, even though I still talk to them only every once in a while because of our busy schedules, I am finally starting to feel like I am a real part of my mom's family. I am starting to feel like I am actually someone that they think about every now and then and care for. I know they always have thought about me and cared for me, but I'm just now realizing how much that means to me. I only wish I could see my family more often. They are all such wonderful people and people that I know I could learn so much from if only I got to spend more time with them. Everyone's so spread out now that it's hard to come together very often. In fact, it just doesn't ever happen until, sadly, someone passes on.
My next trip to visit someone from my family will most likely be up to Nebraska to see my Uncle Ted. Mainly because it's a cheaper trip to visit him than flying somewhere across the country to visit anyone else. I've been wanting to go up to the farm in Nebraska and spend some time with my uncle just visiting and hanging out anyway though. I haven't been to that farm in YEARS and have been wanting to go check it out again for a while now. I remember going as a kid a couple times and absolutely LOVING it. Every story I hear about the times at the farm now, makes me wanna go even more. So yeah, I don't know when that'll happen, but I'm already excited for when it does.
As for now, tomorrow I'll be driving to Brunswick to visit Mark for Father's Day, and I'll be coming back home with him. That's right, my step-dad is coming back with me to KC. Everyone hide! hehe. No seriously though, he has a doctor's appointment on Thursday and doesn't have a ride out here, so he'll be coming back with me and staying with me for a week just to go to this appointment. Bleh! So I ask one thing from my friends for the next week. Pray for me! Oh yeah, and keep your house readily available for visits from me, as I will most likely try to stay away from my house as much as possible while he's here. Oh yeah, and Russell, if you're reading this, I am SOOOOO extremely sorry that the first week you'll be here you'll have to put up with him. You'll understand when you meet him. My advice is to try to stay away from him as much as possible. Eric can tell ya about him. We 3 may wanna go have some drinks every night after a dose of him! ;)
My next trip to visit someone from my family will most likely be up to Nebraska to see my Uncle Ted. Mainly because it's a cheaper trip to visit him than flying somewhere across the country to visit anyone else. I've been wanting to go up to the farm in Nebraska and spend some time with my uncle just visiting and hanging out anyway though. I haven't been to that farm in YEARS and have been wanting to go check it out again for a while now. I remember going as a kid a couple times and absolutely LOVING it. Every story I hear about the times at the farm now, makes me wanna go even more. So yeah, I don't know when that'll happen, but I'm already excited for when it does.
As for now, tomorrow I'll be driving to Brunswick to visit Mark for Father's Day, and I'll be coming back home with him. That's right, my step-dad is coming back with me to KC. Everyone hide! hehe. No seriously though, he has a doctor's appointment on Thursday and doesn't have a ride out here, so he'll be coming back with me and staying with me for a week just to go to this appointment. Bleh! So I ask one thing from my friends for the next week. Pray for me! Oh yeah, and keep your house readily available for visits from me, as I will most likely try to stay away from my house as much as possible while he's here. Oh yeah, and Russell, if you're reading this, I am SOOOOO extremely sorry that the first week you'll be here you'll have to put up with him. You'll understand when you meet him. My advice is to try to stay away from him as much as possible. Eric can tell ya about him. We 3 may wanna go have some drinks every night after a dose of him! ;)