*sigh*
So tonight I went to Franny's and ate some of Chas's great chili (YUM!), then listened to the guys practice while Fran and I played Scrabble. It was a low key night, but great fun all around.
I'm feeling a bit lonely lately, and I think it may be because I haven't talked to a specific someone in quite a while and am missing him. A week and a half actually. Hmmm. That's not such a long time, so I find it really weird that I'm feeling like this so strongly.
I wrote some feelings down late last night when I couldn't get to sleep. Looking back, I see that I have changed quite a bit since my early to mid high school years. And although many people say they have too, or say that everyone does, I see my change as quite a drastic one. I'd say for the most part I like the person that I am, but if I had to choose which person I'd rather be, I'd pick the one from years ago. I have grown up to be, well, a lot of words come to mind, but I'm not any of them to their full meaning of the word. I don't think of myself as really ever being this perfect sweet little girl, but I feel like I went from that standing with people, to people thinking of me as some sort of heartless bitch. I'm not saying that anyone thinks of me like that literally (at least I don't think so), but just saying that that's how it seems people look at me, through my eyes. Grrr, this is too hard to explain, why do I even try?
Anyway, so I haven't been sleeping much at all lately. I go to bed extra late ('cause I just can't fall asleep) and get up extra early. This has been going on for about a week now. I don't know what's going on with me. Normally I'm the sleep in as late as possible and hurry out the door type of person, but I've been getting up and going to work extra early every morning so far this week.
About work, I think I've been coming to terms with my job lately. I'm not as stressed as I used to let myself get, and I think it's because a co-worker has been doing so much stressing for all of us lately. My job is fairly simple, not too stressful, pays the bills, and not a job where I would ever have to take any work home with me. I've been noticing that if I just look at things simply as they are, I enjoy them more or tolerate them easier.
OK, I really don't have much to gab on about, so I'm gonna try to get some shut eye tonight (even though I'm not very tired right now). Lying in bed is always nice. It'd be nicer if someone was next to me, but ah well, we can't all get what we want all the time.
lates, peeps.
I'm feeling a bit lonely lately, and I think it may be because I haven't talked to a specific someone in quite a while and am missing him. A week and a half actually. Hmmm. That's not such a long time, so I find it really weird that I'm feeling like this so strongly.
I wrote some feelings down late last night when I couldn't get to sleep. Looking back, I see that I have changed quite a bit since my early to mid high school years. And although many people say they have too, or say that everyone does, I see my change as quite a drastic one. I'd say for the most part I like the person that I am, but if I had to choose which person I'd rather be, I'd pick the one from years ago. I have grown up to be, well, a lot of words come to mind, but I'm not any of them to their full meaning of the word. I don't think of myself as really ever being this perfect sweet little girl, but I feel like I went from that standing with people, to people thinking of me as some sort of heartless bitch. I'm not saying that anyone thinks of me like that literally (at least I don't think so), but just saying that that's how it seems people look at me, through my eyes. Grrr, this is too hard to explain, why do I even try?
Anyway, so I haven't been sleeping much at all lately. I go to bed extra late ('cause I just can't fall asleep) and get up extra early. This has been going on for about a week now. I don't know what's going on with me. Normally I'm the sleep in as late as possible and hurry out the door type of person, but I've been getting up and going to work extra early every morning so far this week.
About work, I think I've been coming to terms with my job lately. I'm not as stressed as I used to let myself get, and I think it's because a co-worker has been doing so much stressing for all of us lately. My job is fairly simple, not too stressful, pays the bills, and not a job where I would ever have to take any work home with me. I've been noticing that if I just look at things simply as they are, I enjoy them more or tolerate them easier.
OK, I really don't have much to gab on about, so I'm gonna try to get some shut eye tonight (even though I'm not very tired right now). Lying in bed is always nice. It'd be nicer if someone was next to me, but ah well, we can't all get what we want all the time.
lates, peeps.