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Mar 01, 2005 09:01


I have been wanting to update but for some reason couldn't get myself to. I am really glad the live journal page is back to normal. Josh B comes home tomorrow, well in exactly 29 hours. I am excited but extremely scared. When he left 192 days ago, things between us were really bad and not the way I or he wanted them to be. The day he left was just horrible but like he said, this time apart would give us both time to think about what happened before he left and he was right. I am just scared he is going to come back and be so different and he will just want different things. I have a knot in my stomach that has been there for like 3 days. He was supposed to be home this morning at 7:00 or tonight at 5:00 but Main Body 1 took two flights instead of one. George was on that flight. Every time I see him, I start to think again and I hate it. 500 of them were on main body one and there should be just as many, if not more tomorrow. The homecoming is really neat to watch with that many marines. When Kristen and I went before it was just a little bus of about 100 or 150 and that was cool but it is amazing to watch all 500 of them get off the plane and stand at attention infront of everyone. Makes you feel good. I am excited for tomorrow but I wish it was the weekend so I could hang out with him and just talk. I know he'll be busy tomorrow and Thursday probably but this weekend, he shouldnt be. Im sure he is going to New York sometime soon to see his family and then Stacie will see him. . . ugh. . .that is what I am most scared of. I need to go get ready for class. I have a test at 11:00 and have been up since 5:30 and then back to sleep at like 8 and got up again at 8:30, I hate thinking it makes me not sleep and on the radio they keep saying "Hundreds of Marines from the 3MAW at Miramar are returning to Miramar today. . ." I wish it was his turn already. I am so ready for this to be over. I have emotions and feelings I havent ever felt before running through my body, ones that I didnt even experience with Josh Nealey but I guess that is okay, he didnt go to Iraq and wasnt gone for 7 months while I knew him. Hope for the best this weekend. . I will update either after I see him or once we get to talk. Have a fantabulous day ya'll.

Richelle 
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