Crying cause i love someone so much
I wish i never got on the compute tonight.I read some journals and seen somethings i didnt want to read.I cant stop crying im shaking and breaking down hard.I talked to her earlier and she was suppose to call me back but she never did.I wanna see her so bad right now and just hold her tight.I wish everyone would just stop getting in to our business cause knowone knows anything about it.I just want to be with her so bad right now.I dont wanna be her like this without her just crying everynight haceing knowone to open up to cause she was to only one i told things to.Why does this shit happen.This world is nothing but temptations and people dont know how to contol it.Love someone for ever just that one person.Be faithful,respectful,honest,loveablea and so on and so fourth.I want her with me so bad.I dont wanna so her get used or treated as a piece of meat as i see is happing right now just cause she has some curves.Guys are pigs and even girls now these days.I love her so much.She deserves to be treated right now used.I cant stop these tears that fall.The thought of her not being here to live life together kills me inside.Shes the one i want to love,care for,and in the future raise a family and get married and have little malakas.I did anything i could for her.Its cause i care more then anything.I just wanna hold her in my arms.forever and always till i grow old and die.Noone knows how bad this is killing me you think you might but you dont.I dont see very many guys that respect a women and not try to get something out of it.I might sound like im stuck on my self but thats how i am.I lost my virginity to this girl at the age of 21 and i dont care how knows that.I waited for someone i truely loved cause thats what i think is right.share it with someone you love.Dont let anyone take avantage of you.I never want to share that love with anyone else just her.I didnt even matter if it happened i woulda waited for marriage with her.Thats something that is special between to people.Noone see that anymore.Everyones just looking to get a piece of ass and i cant stand that.I had my chances but turned them down until i found the one i love and she got it and now shes gone.I hope we can work threw this.I miss her so muchhhhhhhhhhhhh....I love hering her voice,running my hand threw her beatiful dark hair,staring into her beautifull eyes and holding her tight in my arms feeling her heart beating.I just want that back.I would give my life for it.It dosent meen anything without her anyways.Im crushed,broken,torn apart.I dont no what to do anymore.All i wanna do is break down and cry.All i can do is hope and prey.I cant stop crying i got the ring around my neck looking at her picture.It probably sounds pertty gay but shes the onlyone that brings that side of me out.If it wasnt for here i would probably be an angry ready to snap person on someone idiot type of person.She brings out the good in me.You made me happy when you were their and would open up to me,I loved hering you talk i could listen forever.Maybe my prayers will be awnsered.Thats all i ask for.I just wanna be loved by her forever.I dunno i need to get some tissues and smoke but i cant sleep i hope to god she calls me tomorrow so we can talk.That would make me so happy.I really need some happiness right now cause i havent smiles since friday that just passed.I miss her more then anything.Sagabao poli agapi ya ollo tone zoie mou.Mehri na pethano.