Is there anything great about life?
What is life all about?What i think of it is finding someone that takes care of you and loves you and you get married and have a family and live happily ever after?I dont know about that anymore.Its wierd how life can change so much in 3 days.Everythings alright then it kicks you in the ass.Life lately has been so fucked up.I cant understand why you cant get a staight foward awnser face to face.If you loved them with all your heart dont you think they could atleast do that,Or try to work it out.I guess not.What upsets me the most is i put everything in to it.I never talked to any girls never looked at another girl because i loved one indiviual.Thats pertty fucked up.It feels like something is missing,like your heart.I could probably relate to what a heartattack feels like now,pertty painfull.All i ever wanted is to have someone to love me.Honest is the key part of a relationship if there is none you cant have trust.Thats what lieing does,It ruins everything because you dont know what to think especially when that someone cant introduce you to thier friends.What are you suppose to think about that?Do they not want them to know who you are or are you embaressed by them?I dunno thats what really started problems,Not bringing me in her life at all.Is that so much to ask?I did it.It's not even about them wanting to go out with thier friends once and a while its the fact that they hide you.That hurts more then anything especially when you do it for them.I thought about her and her only all the time.Now all i can do is sit here hurt.That sucks more then anything.Another thing that hurts bad is when you know they think about you and still put anger towards you when that dosent have to be like that.I got a part of my things back that only tells me one thing that they wanted to hold on to it cause they still care deep inside but they push you away anyways.What cause all this out of knowhere who knows i just hope these were her on feelings and not someone elses opinion because knowone else knows anything about it.Ive been threw alot and still stuck around.Who else out there would do that?Knowone just the person that loved you more then even themselves.I have so much anger but at the same time sadness in me right now.That is a bad mix you just want to crack down.I went to make a comment and see that theres another guy trying to come in the picture.She gots his huddy,Thats nice to know.Hes probably trying to get a piece cause thats what most guys do.That hurts that love someone and forget about all the great things between them that happened.Yes their were some rocky times but we made them threw.It takes communication and unconditional love towards that person.You should be one.It dosent meen you have to be together all the time but let that person know that you care and what never hurt them.A phone call for instense,that shows your thinking about them.Some people do care.to make sure that their alright not to see what thier doing.Its courtesy towards that person.I was always there for her even threw her hardest times and i kept that between us.Tell me what kind of person would do that for another?Someone that cares and is a capanion.I hope she makes it out alright and is carefull cause i still care cause i got to good of a heart because that was the way i was raised.What is thier in life after your not with the one you love?Not much.My heads spinning so fast.Its fine during the day when u keep your self busy working but when you go home at night it hits you.Your by yourself.The person you love isnt there by your side.I went for a drive at like 1:00am driving around by my self to try to get my mind of it.it didnt work.Not even your friends can help on that one.Cause when it comes down to it your by yourself one way or another.Even if your with that certain someone you love you grow old and then one of u die and then your by yourslef all over again.Whats so great about that?I guess the memories.But nothings better then haveing by your side to love you till the day u die.Is that possible?I guess you can never have it all.Ive been getting a bunch of interviews so i should have a job soon making good money then i can start saving to make a better life for me and the person i love but then that person leaves.Its a win lose situation.Whats the point of being here without that certain someone?I never thought all these tears could come out of one person.Like they wont stop.I wonder what she is thinking.I see anger but at the same time sadness.I dunno,I just hope your happy,either way.Im always here if you need to talk.I care just remember that.My whole life stopped when you needed something so i can hear your feelings and problems cause thats what i cared about the most,Is to make sure you were alright.Now im just in a pool of tears wondering.I dunno but i need a cigg and some tissues.I will always love you.You will always have a piece of my heart know matter what you were my first love and always will be.p.sIm sorry about the card i was just hurting bad at the time.Thank you for the good times and even some of the bad times,I loved hearing you opening up.Also about the makup and the close i seen you wrote something about that, i didnt get mad about the makeup i just thought you were beautifull without it(my opinion)and as far as the clothes in school i didnt want you to get treated like a cheap piece of meet because thats what they would do at that school.I think i got most of what i wanted to say i would rather of told you this face to face but it dosent look like you would want to.Call if you want to.for anything Bye sweet dreams and goodnight.