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I LOVE AMANDA EILEEN HASSETT, ALLISON IRENE KLEZMER, AND ALEXIS FEINBERG. THEY COMPLETE ME. Amanda i read ur lj to figure out wat happened with matt and kate. dude i would never expect u to choose between friends. and if someoone makes u do that then they really arent friends with u.
Also i read about how u first started doing the c word. i havent cried this hard since nick d's wake. im sry u have to live through it. i really really am. its not fair losing ppl u love and cherish. i no it been over a couple of yrs now but im here for u if u ever need to talk about it.
i had a hard time getting over my gramps. (my real one. not amanda's). he dided of cancer. But anyways i was only in the fifth grade so my mom and dad didnt expect me to understand but i did. i understood that he wasnt going to come back and see me on my birthday and gimme his birthday kisses. i never felt so alone and unloved. that school year was sooooo bad. i can remember it like it happened yesterday.
i still think about him everyday and he is always in my prayers. the pain and the sorrow i felt i dealt with it in silence. i rarely talked after it happened. my parents thought i was going to die from depression. but nope i lived. until i hit 6th grade where everything went down hill again.
the first time i ever tried suicide and my sister disowning me for it. it was cause of the death of my grandfather and the kids humilating and torturing me everyday that i tried it. but whatever.
woahhh wat the hell brought this on. y in the world did i just pour out all that info. wow. well i no im a nutcase and i should be locked up for it but im glad that i have friends that help me through it.
g2g and shower peace out.
Also i read about how u first started doing the c word. i havent cried this hard since nick d's wake. im sry u have to live through it. i really really am. its not fair losing ppl u love and cherish. i no it been over a couple of yrs now but im here for u if u ever need to talk about it.
i had a hard time getting over my gramps. (my real one. not amanda's). he dided of cancer. But anyways i was only in the fifth grade so my mom and dad didnt expect me to understand but i did. i understood that he wasnt going to come back and see me on my birthday and gimme his birthday kisses. i never felt so alone and unloved. that school year was sooooo bad. i can remember it like it happened yesterday.
i still think about him everyday and he is always in my prayers. the pain and the sorrow i felt i dealt with it in silence. i rarely talked after it happened. my parents thought i was going to die from depression. but nope i lived. until i hit 6th grade where everything went down hill again.
the first time i ever tried suicide and my sister disowning me for it. it was cause of the death of my grandfather and the kids humilating and torturing me everyday that i tried it. but whatever.
woahhh wat the hell brought this on. y in the world did i just pour out all that info. wow. well i no im a nutcase and i should be locked up for it but im glad that i have friends that help me through it.
g2g and shower peace out.