...the burden seems to much to bear...
I have an astronomy test at 11:00, and it seems that I've completely forgotten how to study. You would think this freaks me out - but it doesn't. Nothing really gets me these days. My life has become a routine of school, work, sleep, and the occasional night out. Even my mom told me that I needed to have more fun... wtf?! Growing up really isnt what they make it seem like.
I feel old. This freshman class is getting to me. They are all so excited, so energized. Did I miss something?
The weather is changing. I love it but at the same time it freaks me out. It feels like I'm back in last year, last fall, last lifetime.
I feel myself not wanting to be in Tuscaloosa anymore; not wanting to be in the dorm; not wanting to be around these people. Now more than ever there are huge differences and spaces between us.
I need something I can depend on, something I love like my family. I need a rock that's closer than Montgomery.
Huntsville in a few weeks, and then Auburn after that. Did I ever think things would be like this? No. Am I ready for this? I don't know.
I think its time.
but I'm scared.
I feel old. This freshman class is getting to me. They are all so excited, so energized. Did I miss something?
The weather is changing. I love it but at the same time it freaks me out. It feels like I'm back in last year, last fall, last lifetime.
I feel myself not wanting to be in Tuscaloosa anymore; not wanting to be in the dorm; not wanting to be around these people. Now more than ever there are huge differences and spaces between us.
I need something I can depend on, something I love like my family. I need a rock that's closer than Montgomery.
Huntsville in a few weeks, and then Auburn after that. Did I ever think things would be like this? No. Am I ready for this? I don't know.
I think its time.
but I'm scared.