My update
Hello folks. I'm really suprised that I'm still on here, I thought after so many days I would be kicked off. Well here is my update for you all.
Well I'm unemployed yet again. It feels like I can't do anything right anymore. I tried to get a job a Hard Rock Cafe, but no one has called me back and I called, but no one would return my calls I guess I'll call tomarrow. I tried to get a job down where my friend Mike works. I could be a mail carrier, with really important stuff to take to court and be real responsable. I would be paid good and benifits, but the guy that is suspose to interview me is on vacation, and won't be back for a few weeks.
Well I got my diploma this month I'm so excited that school is over with at last. I threw a big party for my friends and family, but alot of people didn't show up and everyone left early and I was left by myself at nine at night. I got a ton of money for my graduation.
Well I'm surprised about my friends I've still have and the friends I have made this summer. Maggie, the actress; she is so cool I get along with her and have fun hanging around her, she performs in the Rocky Horror Picture Show down at Baxter Ave Cinamas, it was tonight but I have to watch my money sorry Mags I'll come to the next one. Finley and Noel, brassy and fun to be around I know them since high school, he is great to crack a joke with really cool guys. Trica, one of my good friends all the way from San Diago. She is so quiet but when she gets going she is a handfull, we hang out and talk, talk talk we could be up unitl 2 or 3 in the morning just talking and cracking jokes. We went to 3 porno shops tonight to get a present for someone, but we couldn't find it, but we had loads of fun. Patrick I spend all my time with that boy. You know I can go to him and really talk out anything. He is a person to listen to my troubles, one of my coolest friends.
Well now we come to Amy. Well to be honest it hasn't been the best with us. We are at a constant argue. I know that we are coming to an end, but I love her so much, but I know I have to let her go. We are so different and I feel we gave it our best shot. She is going to Western in a couple of weeks and I don't when I will be able to see her again. It feels like there is a piece of me thats with her, and there is a piece of her with me, she was my first love, and a first for alot of things, but I know she has to go and find herself and if I'm not there then I have to carry on. I'm almost about to cry it touches me deep. We have grown apart and I know that I'm not the man she wants in the future, so I know I will slowly fade away, and knowing that guys are hitting on her it kills me is shreds through my body, but I have to let it hurt cause there is nothing I can do anything about. It feels like were back to the way things were, and I'm not important to her like her friends are. Think about it she won't hang out with me because she has to get up for work in the morning, but the last couple of nights she has hung out with her friends until 2 in the morning and having to get up for work and the nigt before went to a party until like 3 and get up for work early in the morning. I mean she will be with these people when school starts and I'll be here. It feels like I'm not important at all. She won't make deffinate plans with me, but she will with her friends. Just talkin about this really makes me frustrated and angry, but I still love her, I don't know how long we will last, I'm kind of scared.
I've noticed that it is almost 6 in the morning. I'll try to stay up for the sunrise then sleep in the day and hang out with Amy, but after reading my entry she might not. I'm over at my friends house its along the Ohio River it was nice I came over and no one was here so I found out that they were hanging out on the boat that my friend owns we sat out there talked and looked at the stars it was really nice night.
I've been walkinf latley. I walked to my high school, then I walked to UofL's campus from my house, then tonight I walked over a mile with Trica. Holy shit I almost forgot I got a MP3 player. Its been real good to me I its not big like a CD walkman. Its really cool. Well I'm going to get off of here. I really want to keep in contact more. I'm going to try well bye everyone.
Well I'm unemployed yet again. It feels like I can't do anything right anymore. I tried to get a job a Hard Rock Cafe, but no one has called me back and I called, but no one would return my calls I guess I'll call tomarrow. I tried to get a job down where my friend Mike works. I could be a mail carrier, with really important stuff to take to court and be real responsable. I would be paid good and benifits, but the guy that is suspose to interview me is on vacation, and won't be back for a few weeks.
Well I got my diploma this month I'm so excited that school is over with at last. I threw a big party for my friends and family, but alot of people didn't show up and everyone left early and I was left by myself at nine at night. I got a ton of money for my graduation.
Well I'm surprised about my friends I've still have and the friends I have made this summer. Maggie, the actress; she is so cool I get along with her and have fun hanging around her, she performs in the Rocky Horror Picture Show down at Baxter Ave Cinamas, it was tonight but I have to watch my money sorry Mags I'll come to the next one. Finley and Noel, brassy and fun to be around I know them since high school, he is great to crack a joke with really cool guys. Trica, one of my good friends all the way from San Diago. She is so quiet but when she gets going she is a handfull, we hang out and talk, talk talk we could be up unitl 2 or 3 in the morning just talking and cracking jokes. We went to 3 porno shops tonight to get a present for someone, but we couldn't find it, but we had loads of fun. Patrick I spend all my time with that boy. You know I can go to him and really talk out anything. He is a person to listen to my troubles, one of my coolest friends.
Well now we come to Amy. Well to be honest it hasn't been the best with us. We are at a constant argue. I know that we are coming to an end, but I love her so much, but I know I have to let her go. We are so different and I feel we gave it our best shot. She is going to Western in a couple of weeks and I don't when I will be able to see her again. It feels like there is a piece of me thats with her, and there is a piece of her with me, she was my first love, and a first for alot of things, but I know she has to go and find herself and if I'm not there then I have to carry on. I'm almost about to cry it touches me deep. We have grown apart and I know that I'm not the man she wants in the future, so I know I will slowly fade away, and knowing that guys are hitting on her it kills me is shreds through my body, but I have to let it hurt cause there is nothing I can do anything about. It feels like were back to the way things were, and I'm not important to her like her friends are. Think about it she won't hang out with me because she has to get up for work in the morning, but the last couple of nights she has hung out with her friends until 2 in the morning and having to get up for work and the nigt before went to a party until like 3 and get up for work early in the morning. I mean she will be with these people when school starts and I'll be here. It feels like I'm not important at all. She won't make deffinate plans with me, but she will with her friends. Just talkin about this really makes me frustrated and angry, but I still love her, I don't know how long we will last, I'm kind of scared.
I've noticed that it is almost 6 in the morning. I'll try to stay up for the sunrise then sleep in the day and hang out with Amy, but after reading my entry she might not. I'm over at my friends house its along the Ohio River it was nice I came over and no one was here so I found out that they were hanging out on the boat that my friend owns we sat out there talked and looked at the stars it was really nice night.
I've been walkinf latley. I walked to my high school, then I walked to UofL's campus from my house, then tonight I walked over a mile with Trica. Holy shit I almost forgot I got a MP3 player. Its been real good to me I its not big like a CD walkman. Its really cool. Well I'm going to get off of here. I really want to keep in contact more. I'm going to try well bye everyone.