There is a song for every emotion.
Kyle will kill me if he ever sees this. :[ Oh well. Last night was fun and it made me realize that the few friends I do have left are more than worth keeping around. I hung out with Javi, like I said I would. We went to Uncle Sams so she could order a CD. I found to new FFTL and Spill Canvas CD's used for 5 bucks each and bought them. We also got coffee, returned a movie and ate tacos that her mom made. Delicious tacos of deliciousness. Then we picked up Carlynn from work and went to Java where we met up with Keisha?, Jason and Anthony. Then we all went to the beach. The beach at night is probably one of my favorite things. I would have gone in the water, for once, except that there were man-o-war and dark water scares me to begin with. So I didn't do that. We all laid out on the beach and found shapes in the clouds and sang Journey at the top of our lungs. It was pretty awesome. After we went to Denny's and made coke lines out of the sugar on the table and the waitress ignored me. I got home around 330am and fell asleep with the TV on.
Also, at Uncle Sams there was a CD, I don't even remember what it was... Javi probably does, but it had the genre on a sticker and it said like 'Soul, R&B, Gay' and we had a nice long laugh about that and how unfortunate it was that I didn't have my camera with me. I need to charge it and put it back in my purse. Not that it isn't heavy enough with the umbrella and book in it. D: The beach thing reminded me of Javi & Drew's combo birthday party like... two or three years ago. We went to some girls house who lived off of A1A and everyone got fucking smashed. Destroyed. And Drew was confessing his love to me all over the place and his girlfriend was getting pissy. But Javi, this kid I don't remember and I all walked out to the beach and climbed over a fence and played in the water. Then we went back and went swimming in the nasty pool. And then I went home because Drews girlfriend made him leave and I felt more awkward without him there than I did with him there.
I guess it's windy today because the wood my dad has leaned up against my window that he's SUPPOSED to be fixing the house with keeps shaking and freaking me the fuck out. Today is supposed to be my last day at Walgreens but I'm being a bitch and not going in. It's going to piss a lot of people off, but I don't give a shit. Those fuckers put me through hell. Now they can have a taste. I don't suggest working at Walgreens for anyone. :]
I want some more tacos.
EDIT 640PM JUNE5: We played air hockey at the bowling alley, too. And I climbed on the table at one point and got bruises from the lip. Ow. :[
By Rilo Kiley
Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs
I know I can't breathe
And hope someone will save me this time
And your mother's still calling you insane and high
Swearing it's different this time
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
And that god never blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
And crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you love things just because
Like the sick and dying
And sometimes when you're on
You're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be better
You'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter or son
And a real good friend
And you'll be awake
You'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest
You'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them