If I could sleep forever, would you still be in my dreams?
The first thing I want to talk about is the return of Blink 182! Um, amazing? Yes. I plan on going to all, if any, Florida dates when they are announced. Anyone with me on that? The first time I saw Blink 182 was in 2001 with New Found Glory and Midtown. Wow. My first Blink 182 CD was Dude Ranch... when I was in 4th grade. Thank you, Melissa for ever introducing me to them. They will always and forever be my favorite band and I am so. fucking. happy. that they're back. Now if only we could convince Phantom Planet to make a come back and throw them together in some sort of epically awesome tour? Idk... Blink 182 just holds a lot of fond memories for me... Like just sitting in my room with Javi pretending I could go to Chile with her. Or seeing that my seats at the show [the second time I saw them! with Greenday...] were right next to the hot kid from school. How can anyone not be happy that they're back? Plus, Mark is still so hot. Mhhhhmmmm.
I have an appointment for tomorrow... To get my license. Oh god, wish me luck. I'm on the verge of having a Panic! attack just thinking about the pressure I'm going to be under. I am HORRIBLE at tests. Even though I know I'm a fairly decent driver and I should be pretty okay, I'm still so nervous. And the place I'm going to is off of 441, the busiest road in the history of ever. [HYPERBOLE!] So, idk. bleh.
I've been sick for like days now. It's disgustingly sick too. Like I feel all throwy uppy all the time. And if I stand for too long I get dizzy. What's with that? I don't think I ate anything bad... Hum.
I don't know what else to talk about, really. I mostly feel like the most uninteresting person in the world. I've been in kind of a funk lately too. Idk. I'm pretty much still sick of dating/relationships/love/sex whatnot. Had a talk with Kevin last night about guys that like me... Like, why? They act like I'm the most fascinating person on the planet. Like I'm going to save them from the demons of hell or something. Kevin says it's because I'm myself, no matter what and all other girls just try too hard. But I do try... I think I try pretty hard. But I'm not going to act like I don't love sci-fi and Hanson or dancing like a total loser when I hear a song I like. I want so badly to say that it's dumb that that's the reason boys find me so interesting~ but ... isn't that what I want? Someone who likes me for ME. Despite the fact that I'll probably pay more attention to a zombie movie claiming it's research than I will to them.
idk.idk.
It just seems like... All the boys I like find me repulsive, but the boys I don't like all want to get with me. Especially the ones at work. Who also need to learn to mind their own business. And/or if I tell them something in confidence to keep their mouth shut. I trust too easily. That needs to stop. I'm just annoyed with everything lately. Am I in Orlando yet? :/