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So my job is going to be advertised on Thursday. I'm relieved but also extremely worried. What if there's no other positions at the company? I've got a month to find another job or I'm back at the parents (which granted isn't the worst thing in the world, but its a step backwards and I like living where I do now). I really wouldn't know what work to go for either or what job i can see myself in. I've done so many different things at work that my CV will be brilliant, but it doesn't get me into any roles as such. Its been 3 and a half years and I have a lot of friends. I don't really want that to go (unless I do get a postman job, which doesn't seem likely at the moment). I'm really trying hard to block it out of my head but it's pretty hard, especially at work as my manager is really annoying me with her manner, and the way she apprehends me for mistakes & just in general.
I've also put a lot of weight on over last month, I have to stop eating like a pig which is upsetting as I love eating what I want obviously. But all the pictures of me since christmas make me feel unhappy. I look really different. I need to get into the exercise routine and stop being a lazy fuck.
Got some great stuff planned with friends for next few weekends though. Also got another rave next month with Techno legends Surgeon, Robert Hood, Clark & more with Dave & perhaps Jack & Fran. Will be as fun as Aphex was I hope. I want to attend 6 raves & 2 festivals this year at least. Plus many gig's if I can manage it.
Devin Townsend eases the pain a bit. www.rateyourmusic.com has given me so much good music the last week too, listening to classics I never knew ie. Ganf of Four, The Stooges, Meat Puppets, Dream Theater etc etc. I am such a fucking musical geek it even makes me feel weird I get so into it.
I've also put a lot of weight on over last month, I have to stop eating like a pig which is upsetting as I love eating what I want obviously. But all the pictures of me since christmas make me feel unhappy. I look really different. I need to get into the exercise routine and stop being a lazy fuck.
Got some great stuff planned with friends for next few weekends though. Also got another rave next month with Techno legends Surgeon, Robert Hood, Clark & more with Dave & perhaps Jack & Fran. Will be as fun as Aphex was I hope. I want to attend 6 raves & 2 festivals this year at least. Plus many gig's if I can manage it.
Devin Townsend eases the pain a bit. www.rateyourmusic.com has given me so much good music the last week too, listening to classics I never knew ie. Ganf of Four, The Stooges, Meat Puppets, Dream Theater etc etc. I am such a fucking musical geek it even makes me feel weird I get so into it.