Okay, finally I'm finished with this one. This is not exactly the fic I've started writing about a month ago. It has grown three times...and definitely added on the fucked-upness level and the angst. Enjoy!
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Probably with this one: You rock the wincest like a few authors do Because I must admit...I get a bit jealous *every* time when you mention the two authors you do (you know whom) and I want to impress you every time I write. See, you are that special. :)
I don't know how to say this without sounding ridiculous but it's like you've 'grown up' more. Hmmm. don't know what to parry on this one. Besides that I should probably write more fucked up and classy? :) Hope the next Spwan AU will keep up the bar I set with this one.
And all those parts in the beginning with undead!Dean were meant to be AFTER the last part of the story right? Yup. This is my main fear that maybe some readers will find the fic confusing. The last part is the beginning of the present day when Sam brings Dean back, and the first part is actually the last one, wheer Sam readies himself to finish Dean off.
Gah, i am still not sure what species of undead Dean is, but IMO this is not the point here.
I'm EXTREMELY glad and relieved you enjoyed the sketchy flashbacks, I feel lame and unoriginal going into graphic details (because other authors write porn better, it's a fact). And since I CAN'T strain my imagination to write a more graphic TopDean scene (I just can't *see* it in my brains, same with bottom Krycek), the only scene where I felt less tongue tied, is a TopSammy. was hard to separate a top18yroSam from the on e we've seen yesterday...I was anxious I...threw a shadow of a rape in it. But then IMO Sam knows Dean better, before he uses a little force, Dean would not give in.
OH, I FORGOT: you made the 2th person work. HOW DID YOU DO THAT? That's what hit me more as perfect choice and perfect execution. Seriously...I don't know. i still think it's a bit...lame.
Btw, the 1999 scene, with Dean prostituiting himself I had written two days ago, on a spur, to stress the fact why Dean's nto giving up to Sam earlier. I think...it wasn't very pretty, before. I even have a few unwritten flashbacks in Dean's POV, but they are not fitting the narration, will only mix up the POVs.
Yeah, guilty as charged, John here is a plot device, to push the guys closer, to enhance Dean's frantic desolation.... Im not sure how John'd have reacted discovering his sons are lovers (if it's the fitting word here, btu maybe it is, because love has many faces), but imo even in this case John has his own demons eating on his soul, inside.
Ok, if you want to say smthg else...please do when you have the time. It's only through discussion I get the ideas for new fics, and support that my efforts are rewarded. ;)
THANK THANKS A LOT for this.
PS: you can rec my story somewhere. /whistles/
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