#003 sunshine
This will definitely sound ungrateful/spoilt/obnoxious.
But here it goes,
WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO THE AIRCONDITIONING ON THE MRT TODAY. did it die? , its bad enough we have to bump shoulders with strangers, pay for high fares when we are not even getting seats, the air conditioning just had to kill itself today.
On a lighter note i did get to sit at City Hall, AT LEAST. That's the best you can get in Singapore i guess, " AT LEAST". Everytime you think your life is shit you have to.. well " AT LEAST " my life isn't bla bla bla. Really? Is that how one is satisfied/appreciative for what they have in life? If it is, i am wayyyyyy opposite of that.
Maybe that is the problem, we can never really have enough of be satisfied with anything can we? ( and by WE i really mean ME, trying not to single myself out, cause really, i'm still in denial)
POWER OF POSITIVE THINKING
1) Though i have to face my boss 9 hours a day, an hour extra than i get to sleep each day. He is at least understanding though lame, obnoxious but forgiving ( i dont know how that is possible) and most importantly i can bribe him with fisherman's friend.
2) It takes me only half an hour to get home, a very angsty 30 minute ride but it's still better than nothing.
3) At home i have the privilege of doing.. CHORES! YES! Why didnt i think twice before buying nice clothes? Really? Cause it really is a pain in the ass to find out the washer just conveniently made holes on my new clothes. HAND WASHING CLOTHES. #1 WORLD PAIN : back pain + rubbery fingers + strain my knees (i feel old)
4) Chatting with my hommies, by hommies i mean the boy. Really ever since work i've lost touch/not really close to any of the girlfriends. What the hell happened. What didn't i do. Extra effort that should have been put in. My life bites, and the only person to blame is myself.
5) Counting the hours till i have to go to work. Time wasted, why do i do this every night and waste countless hours which i could have done something else. Read up about interesting things/ took up interest in other things. ( Interest + other things : my mind is blank really)
All the hours that i spent complaining/contemplating/procrastinating all wasted, and i didn't realise it till now. NOW, when my boss is away and i've read all my work mails and i'm trying to find something to do AKA trying my best to reflect on my life.
What should i do: NEXT TIME JUST DO IT AND GET IT OVER WITH. ( this needs to happen ). So for this week, or what's left of it ( 3 days only ) just do what needs to be done and get it over with. Im going to do this. This is far from being appreciative about what my life has to offer, but at least im one step ahead from wherever it is i am at now. Life needs to move on, i need to move somewhere to get somewhere else. And hopefully one day when i reach wherever it is i need to go/ if i accomplish it. It will be worth it.
SIDE NOTE
1) Wash new dress and cardi
2) Magic clean the house
3) Wash my toilet during the weekends
// procrastinating already. i can feel it,
God this post is confusing.
XOXO
But here it goes,
WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO THE AIRCONDITIONING ON THE MRT TODAY. did it die? , its bad enough we have to bump shoulders with strangers, pay for high fares when we are not even getting seats, the air conditioning just had to kill itself today.
On a lighter note i did get to sit at City Hall, AT LEAST. That's the best you can get in Singapore i guess, " AT LEAST". Everytime you think your life is shit you have to.. well " AT LEAST " my life isn't bla bla bla. Really? Is that how one is satisfied/appreciative for what they have in life? If it is, i am wayyyyyy opposite of that.
Maybe that is the problem, we can never really have enough of be satisfied with anything can we? ( and by WE i really mean ME, trying not to single myself out, cause really, i'm still in denial)
POWER OF POSITIVE THINKING
1) Though i have to face my boss 9 hours a day, an hour extra than i get to sleep each day. He is at least understanding though lame, obnoxious but forgiving ( i dont know how that is possible) and most importantly i can bribe him with fisherman's friend.
2) It takes me only half an hour to get home, a very angsty 30 minute ride but it's still better than nothing.
3) At home i have the privilege of doing.. CHORES! YES! Why didnt i think twice before buying nice clothes? Really? Cause it really is a pain in the ass to find out the washer just conveniently made holes on my new clothes. HAND WASHING CLOTHES. #1 WORLD PAIN : back pain + rubbery fingers + strain my knees (i feel old)
4) Chatting with my hommies, by hommies i mean the boy. Really ever since work i've lost touch/not really close to any of the girlfriends. What the hell happened. What didn't i do. Extra effort that should have been put in. My life bites, and the only person to blame is myself.
5) Counting the hours till i have to go to work. Time wasted, why do i do this every night and waste countless hours which i could have done something else. Read up about interesting things/ took up interest in other things. ( Interest + other things : my mind is blank really)
All the hours that i spent complaining/contemplating/procrastinating all wasted, and i didn't realise it till now. NOW, when my boss is away and i've read all my work mails and i'm trying to find something to do AKA trying my best to reflect on my life.
What should i do: NEXT TIME JUST DO IT AND GET IT OVER WITH. ( this needs to happen ). So for this week, or what's left of it ( 3 days only ) just do what needs to be done and get it over with. Im going to do this. This is far from being appreciative about what my life has to offer, but at least im one step ahead from wherever it is i am at now. Life needs to move on, i need to move somewhere to get somewhere else. And hopefully one day when i reach wherever it is i need to go/ if i accomplish it. It will be worth it.
SIDE NOTE
1) Wash new dress and cardi
2) Magic clean the house
3) Wash my toilet during the weekends
// procrastinating already. i can feel it,
God this post is confusing.
XOXO