sorry have not written forever, Update
So lets see first off sorry I have not updated in a while. Well Jolie's death has been a year on September 6th. I cannot believe that. Friday my brother in law was in a major accident he fell asleep and he had gasoline to fill other trucks up and a huge portable welder in the back (he works construction). He is in bad shape. We hope he makes it. It has been a long couple days. He has a collapsed lung, broken nose, broken eye sockets, lacerations all over, scalped his head to where you see his skull, skull fracture, broken collar bone,and a dislocated shoulder. I had to tell my nephew and go get him. It was hard to break the news to him. He is 13. He cried a lot.
Heidi my ex-girlfriend a couple days ago told me she was in love with me and her new girlfriend. Then a day after said she is just done and wants to close her eyes and never wake up. She does not want to choose between us and hurt us. Which she has been hurting me for over a year now. I never know what to do because I love her and always will. She tells me she loves me and we'll talk a lot and then I will not hear from her for two weeks. Then she will tell me she wants to see me but she would not be able to control herself and probably would kiss me and sleep with me. I just hate the confusion and uncertainty. I am not uncertain of my love for her but she is uncertain. Ugh.
I still am seeing this guy. Yes this guy. and he is in love with me but I am not in love with him. He says he loves me and I just do not say anything. He is cool to hang out with and he treats me like gold but he knows it is not going anywhere or at least not until I figure out the Heidi issue or when Heidi does I mean.
Anyways that is just a little update on me.
Heidi my ex-girlfriend a couple days ago told me she was in love with me and her new girlfriend. Then a day after said she is just done and wants to close her eyes and never wake up. She does not want to choose between us and hurt us. Which she has been hurting me for over a year now. I never know what to do because I love her and always will. She tells me she loves me and we'll talk a lot and then I will not hear from her for two weeks. Then she will tell me she wants to see me but she would not be able to control herself and probably would kiss me and sleep with me. I just hate the confusion and uncertainty. I am not uncertain of my love for her but she is uncertain. Ugh.
I still am seeing this guy. Yes this guy. and he is in love with me but I am not in love with him. He says he loves me and I just do not say anything. He is cool to hang out with and he treats me like gold but he knows it is not going anywhere or at least not until I figure out the Heidi issue or when Heidi does I mean.
Anyways that is just a little update on me.