peace after the storm
so i look at what i have seen and gone through the past few weeks and it reminds me of mathew 14... peter walking on the water... he took the step out on the stromy water but took his eye off jesus and began to sink jesus grabed his hand and said, "what the freak?" peter took his eye off what really mattered and fell i did the same... itook my eye off god and his plan and i went through a dry period.. this is true being parched and dry i was lost sinking into a pit of my self indulgence./.. klost ai had only to rely on the good shepard... true as some one might read this my life isn't perfect.... its down right right hard to understand everything that will happen... i must rely on what God has set before me. i must rely on the power that he has through my weakness... this is what is so great about th gospel or the good news... its so different from the world that it almost looks as too good to be true. but is it? true i do have questions and concerns in my life... but how much easier is it to know that God has your life on a plan... and the only way to follow it is to THROW your pride away to offer it up to Him to make you more holy as He is holy. sometimes i find my self wondering is this really true? what i believe? but then i get reminder of Hebrews 11:1 faith is what we believe in not what we see... even though i have doubts my faith makes me believe that there isGod watching and comforting and guiding me through my life ion which i want to honor him... this is my desire to honor him.... its hard to fully understand him in all i do... its hard... flat out its hard... and i want to do his work... and i need to rejoice in the hard times and work in the easy... this is where the accountability comes in.... with james leaving for two weeks i was at a zero leting loose... and me not wrinting in my journal... because this is only a second source for those to read. i was at a stand still in my walk i didn't know what to do... but i realized that the people in my life care for me and they want to know what is happening in my life... and i want to know twhat is happening n theirs... i.e i want to know what is happening in alysa's life... but thats just a side thought, and another journal for another day... i wan to know how people are doing in their klives because that is the body of christ... we are unified through the death of jesus christ.. you can get community without untiy... lol great times. well this has been the peace after the storm but i sence that there will be many more storms because there are always storms... i just hope that i will remember this one and what i learned... because through our brokenness we become week and and Hid power is made sufficient through our weakness... glory to God... its not to us but to his name... i hope that i can honor God in all that i do... well thi si my chaos... so i will see you all later... im out. later.