A [kind of] quick update.
Today was rough for me. A few days ago I had my doctor's appointment and he was an asshole, so we don't really know when my surgery is now. Monday I have an appointment with Dr. Greenspoon. So today I was in a bitchy mood and I just felt really shitty. I walked around pissed off and just thought about stuff. Then Jim came over & I really enjoy his company lately. He's very sarcastic and he's deep in discussion. Not really with me, but it's interesting to listen to. I think since he deals with a bunch of freshman all day, he doesn't really realize that I'm complex & that I can speak my opinions. He's basically used to a group of immature faggots, but I forgive him because I know some freshman who really tick me off & I'm semi-immature... so yeah. Then Nadia was on Cate's screen name and I got really scared because I didn't know it was her. lol
Then later on I [kind of] fought with my dad & then I just went into my room & into my closet and cried and listened to I Can Make A Mess Like Nobody's Business & thought about sad shit. Then I got really tired and fell onto my side and slept on my shoes for a few hours. It was nice to sleep... I really needed it. Now I'm just chilling out. I didn't do anything really today & that mostly sucks, but I guess I needed a day of nothing. I still have my chemistry exam to finish and I still have to do my robotics/webdawgs page. I wanted to earlier and that's [kind of] why my dad and I fought. So now I can't find the cd with all the stuff on it and I decided I'd go on livejournal and update on what's going on in my life. Because a post saying, "life's okay, i guess." gets old fast & that's been up there for a while. I'm still single... go figure. Things are really just the same, except I have some more medication & a few more friends & feelings.
I guess life doesn't change, does it? I mean, mine hasn't. I've gotten older, of course. But, no real dramatic changes like diseases or long-lost-but-now-found-twins or parents dying or friends moving. I guess I don't want any of that, but I'm ready for life to change. I don't want it to, but it's kind of like something has to move or shift slightly. Nothing drastic, just a slight shift in the way I live. I don't really want anything like that, but there's always something like that peaking it's little head around the corner & waiting for the worse time possible to open up & show itself. I'm not sure if any of that makes sense. It doesn't really make sense to me. It basically just sounds hypocritical. Which fits my personality description. So maybe it's politically correct, but also not politically correct. Because it's not correct for something to not happen and happen, but if I'm a hypocrite, then isn't it kind of right?
Anyways. I think I'm going to go find my dad and ask him where my cd is & work on my yearbook page.
Goodnight♥
ps; Notice how I haven't changed my layout... You're proud, I know.
Then later on I [kind of] fought with my dad & then I just went into my room & into my closet and cried and listened to I Can Make A Mess Like Nobody's Business & thought about sad shit. Then I got really tired and fell onto my side and slept on my shoes for a few hours. It was nice to sleep... I really needed it. Now I'm just chilling out. I didn't do anything really today & that mostly sucks, but I guess I needed a day of nothing. I still have my chemistry exam to finish and I still have to do my robotics/webdawgs page. I wanted to earlier and that's [kind of] why my dad and I fought. So now I can't find the cd with all the stuff on it and I decided I'd go on livejournal and update on what's going on in my life. Because a post saying, "life's okay, i guess." gets old fast & that's been up there for a while. I'm still single... go figure. Things are really just the same, except I have some more medication & a few more friends & feelings.
I guess life doesn't change, does it? I mean, mine hasn't. I've gotten older, of course. But, no real dramatic changes like diseases or long-lost-but-now-found-twins or parents dying or friends moving. I guess I don't want any of that, but I'm ready for life to change. I don't want it to, but it's kind of like something has to move or shift slightly. Nothing drastic, just a slight shift in the way I live. I don't really want anything like that, but there's always something like that peaking it's little head around the corner & waiting for the worse time possible to open up & show itself. I'm not sure if any of that makes sense. It doesn't really make sense to me. It basically just sounds hypocritical. Which fits my personality description. So maybe it's politically correct, but also not politically correct. Because it's not correct for something to not happen and happen, but if I'm a hypocrite, then isn't it kind of right?
Anyways. I think I'm going to go find my dad and ask him where my cd is & work on my yearbook page.
Goodnight♥
ps; Notice how I haven't changed my layout... You're proud, I know.