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okay.. well honestly I dont know how TA works.. I don't know what my classes are how i'll get them and if I have to go pick them up.. im really stupid..okay. Do we get 20 mins breaks between each class or 5 like normally... Do we have lunch? If we do where and how long.. I'm completely not informed on the school at all.. so someone please tell me this crap... I had a dream last night that there were only 6 class rooms and everyone had the same class.. god it was weird and I know thats not how it is because i sasw a lot more classrooms then 6.. and truthfully I'M SCARED! I don't want to go because I don't know how im going to get home... or if I get there early where do I go?.... damn i'm so screwed
and on the other page of my brain.. I've been thinking. oh god.. I was thinking again.. dont read it if you dont really wanna.. heh yeah.. ur choice
Yeah.. so I used to like this guy Aubrei.. He's really cool.. and fun.. He'd always take me and my friend katherine places and we'd just hang out ALL THE TIME. we were all the best of friends.. Me liking him was obvious to everyone.. even him. I knew he knew But he never said anything so neither did I.
One night I was staying at my friend, Katherines house. Aubrei and his little brother nathaniel came over with the MPV. we were watching a movie and katherine was really pissing me off.. So I went outside. Aubrei went outside as well and he said lets go.. or something and we got in the MPV. I thought to myself 'This is the time. You have to tell him how you feel! your all alone so just do it!' Then nathaniel came out and I never got a chance to tell him. Maybe i was making up excuses to not tell him.. but I sure did blow my chances (If there were any..) with him.
So later on alayne started coming over to katherines because sarah and her were friends.. I'm not exactly sure how long ago but he started dating this bitch alayne. Yeah..when I liked him she flirted with him..and all this shit and one night she stayed the night at sarahs and katherines house, as did I and Aubrei.. She stayed up all night talking to aubrei and she tried acting really nice and cool and it WORKED. I think he said 3months. Now, 3 months later... She's a bitch and she's controlling and she is so emotionall to him.. and a bunch of BULLSHIT. Once they started dating they faded away slowly. We never saw Aubrei anymore.. Maybe it was because of his job.. but I think it was because everyone at the house HATED alayne so she didn't go and neither did aubrei..
I was at a pool halll the other night with katherine and latisha. Katherine called Aubrei up to get Julians number.. but she ended up asking him to come over there! To be honest.. I didn't really wanna see him because I thought he might be with alayne or he might be a dick like thoes last few days before he was completely gone.. But when he got there he wasn't a dick and alayne wasn't with him! We went inside and me and him played a game of pool while e vveryone else just talked... He was trying to tell me how to play pool.. but I already knew.. but he beat me. Yeah that night we drove around forever trying to lok for someone 21 or over. we couldn't so we ended up going to the park. then we went home at about 10 30 pm. we all slept out in the motor home.. and in the morning Aubrei left.. Yeah.
That night I rememberd how much I liked Aubrei and how cool he really is when a bitch isn't tied to his side. I wish him and alayne would brake up so we can hang out like old times.. but mostly so he's happy. That night he was fun but it didn't seem like he was happy.
I liked Aubrei.. and I THINK I still do.. I doubt that me and him will ever be more than friends or best friends.. but thats cool.. He's a fun person.
writing this out helped me.. writing things out helps me.. heh I dont think I got everything down that i hoped for.. and I don't even think this was how I wanted to write this. yeah well i'll try again some other time.
'til then.. peace mah niggahs
hah oh god im gonna get shot
luvluv Stina
and on the other page of my brain.. I've been thinking. oh god.. I was thinking again.. dont read it if you dont really wanna.. heh yeah.. ur choice
Yeah.. so I used to like this guy Aubrei.. He's really cool.. and fun.. He'd always take me and my friend katherine places and we'd just hang out ALL THE TIME. we were all the best of friends.. Me liking him was obvious to everyone.. even him. I knew he knew But he never said anything so neither did I.
One night I was staying at my friend, Katherines house. Aubrei and his little brother nathaniel came over with the MPV. we were watching a movie and katherine was really pissing me off.. So I went outside. Aubrei went outside as well and he said lets go.. or something and we got in the MPV. I thought to myself 'This is the time. You have to tell him how you feel! your all alone so just do it!' Then nathaniel came out and I never got a chance to tell him. Maybe i was making up excuses to not tell him.. but I sure did blow my chances (If there were any..) with him.
So later on alayne started coming over to katherines because sarah and her were friends.. I'm not exactly sure how long ago but he started dating this bitch alayne. Yeah..when I liked him she flirted with him..and all this shit and one night she stayed the night at sarahs and katherines house, as did I and Aubrei.. She stayed up all night talking to aubrei and she tried acting really nice and cool and it WORKED. I think he said 3months. Now, 3 months later... She's a bitch and she's controlling and she is so emotionall to him.. and a bunch of BULLSHIT. Once they started dating they faded away slowly. We never saw Aubrei anymore.. Maybe it was because of his job.. but I think it was because everyone at the house HATED alayne so she didn't go and neither did aubrei..
I was at a pool halll the other night with katherine and latisha. Katherine called Aubrei up to get Julians number.. but she ended up asking him to come over there! To be honest.. I didn't really wanna see him because I thought he might be with alayne or he might be a dick like thoes last few days before he was completely gone.. But when he got there he wasn't a dick and alayne wasn't with him! We went inside and me and him played a game of pool while e vveryone else just talked... He was trying to tell me how to play pool.. but I already knew.. but he beat me. Yeah that night we drove around forever trying to lok for someone 21 or over. we couldn't so we ended up going to the park. then we went home at about 10 30 pm. we all slept out in the motor home.. and in the morning Aubrei left.. Yeah.
That night I rememberd how much I liked Aubrei and how cool he really is when a bitch isn't tied to his side. I wish him and alayne would brake up so we can hang out like old times.. but mostly so he's happy. That night he was fun but it didn't seem like he was happy.
I liked Aubrei.. and I THINK I still do.. I doubt that me and him will ever be more than friends or best friends.. but thats cool.. He's a fun person.
writing this out helped me.. writing things out helps me.. heh I dont think I got everything down that i hoped for.. and I don't even think this was how I wanted to write this. yeah well i'll try again some other time.
'til then.. peace mah niggahs
hah oh god im gonna get shot
luvluv Stina