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Im going to make a happy journal update. Because today wasnt bad. I got up at 7 and got ready then headed to work. I worked shoveling rocks from 7 to 4, then I took a lunch break before heading out to sears, at 9 I got to get out and then went to rock and bowl with chris alex george lunchbox and their weird friend. Today , while I was working and shoveling rocks I got a real sense of happiness, in a weird way. I dont know how this sounds but I was working in the field just doing some real grunt work. I thought about it a lot (I was the only one there for 8 hours so I get plenty of thinking done) and I figure, this isnt a bad way to live. If I had a family that I could make enough money to feed, maybe with a wife that works a small job too, and I could pay them enough to have a decent house with nothing great, I would still be happy. I realised that even though theres so much college and all that , im still trying real hard to get into college at places I want, but I realised that no matter waht theres a way to end up happy. It felt really nice to be able to finnaly not worry about failing and worry about each decision being life ending. No matter what, theres something I can do to be happy. My day wasnt packed with amazing thigns, but thats what made it awesome. I had a good day just working and then relaxing.