New Year swiftly approaches
The New Year quickly approaches…my favorite holiday. I often use this time of the year to reflect on my life, what I’ve accomplished over the past year, and where I’m headed in the near future. I’ve noticed I’m not the only one doing so either…which makes me smile a little inside.
For most of this year I’ve been away in Iraq. That seems so far away now…but there are still residual traces that can be seen in my mannerisms and a lasting influence deep in my subconscious. I’m trying to work past that, but I can’t shake the feeling that I’ll never truly be free of it altogether. We’ll see…
Fast approaches the end of my time in the military and the move back to the “real” world. Now, I’ve planned, organized, re-planned, and thought it all over again and again. There are so many variables on the road ahead. So many things are going to change. I can’t foresee the end of all my decisions…I just hope that I’m making the right choices. You see…I actually enjoy being a Marine…it’s just that I can’t keep doing this…it’s time to move on with my life. I just hope I don’t get bored out there in the “real” world…because when I’m bored things get dangerous.
Try and understand I enjoy knowing and having a plan. Now, before you start in on the whole “no plan survives first contact intact” rhetoric…work with me here. I’m not saying I need every little detail covered and possible outcome known. That would make things very boring (refer to the above paragraph on why that’s bad). I enjoy having a solid foundation to start out on and if (when) things change I can roll with it. That’s what makes life interesting to me…seemingly random causality. For the last 9 years I’ve been in the military…the very definition of organized chaos. I’ve grown accustomed to having some semblance of order and at least an idea of where I’m going to be. That’ll all soon be gone. I must admit it has me a little…anxious.
Here’s hoping my anxiety doesn’t get the best of me and that I don’t get burnt out before my time. So, if I seem more absent-minded than usual or frenetically unstable to the point I’m running around with no clear purpose in sight, hopefully you’ll have a better understanding of where it is I stand.
I wish the best of luck to all of you in your endeavors for the New Year.
For most of this year I’ve been away in Iraq. That seems so far away now…but there are still residual traces that can be seen in my mannerisms and a lasting influence deep in my subconscious. I’m trying to work past that, but I can’t shake the feeling that I’ll never truly be free of it altogether. We’ll see…
Fast approaches the end of my time in the military and the move back to the “real” world. Now, I’ve planned, organized, re-planned, and thought it all over again and again. There are so many variables on the road ahead. So many things are going to change. I can’t foresee the end of all my decisions…I just hope that I’m making the right choices. You see…I actually enjoy being a Marine…it’s just that I can’t keep doing this…it’s time to move on with my life. I just hope I don’t get bored out there in the “real” world…because when I’m bored things get dangerous.
Try and understand I enjoy knowing and having a plan. Now, before you start in on the whole “no plan survives first contact intact” rhetoric…work with me here. I’m not saying I need every little detail covered and possible outcome known. That would make things very boring (refer to the above paragraph on why that’s bad). I enjoy having a solid foundation to start out on and if (when) things change I can roll with it. That’s what makes life interesting to me…seemingly random causality. For the last 9 years I’ve been in the military…the very definition of organized chaos. I’ve grown accustomed to having some semblance of order and at least an idea of where I’m going to be. That’ll all soon be gone. I must admit it has me a little…anxious.
Here’s hoping my anxiety doesn’t get the best of me and that I don’t get burnt out before my time. So, if I seem more absent-minded than usual or frenetically unstable to the point I’m running around with no clear purpose in sight, hopefully you’ll have a better understanding of where it is I stand.
I wish the best of luck to all of you in your endeavors for the New Year.